My life and times

Shakermaker

2006-11-14T11:51:00.000-06:00

I'd like to be somebody else and not know where I've been.
I'd like to build myself a house out of plasticine.
Shake along with me.

I've been driving in my car with my friend Mr. Soft.
Mr. Clean and Mr. Ben are living in my loft.
Shake along with me.

I'm sorry but I just don't know.
I know I said I told you so.
When you're happy and you're feeling fine,
Then you'll know it's the right time
It's the right time
To shake along with me.

Mister Sifter sold me songs
When I was just sixteen.
Now he stops at traffic lights
but only when they're green.
Shake along with me.

Buttered Noodles!

2006-11-10T11:32:00.001-06:00

I love Noodles and Company. It is one of my favorite places to eat now if I ever go out to eat, which isn't often because I am kind of broke right now. I am planning on looking for a job soon. I will probably work at the University Hospital somewhere, but I haven't decided if I want to do a desk job type thing, or work as a CNA. CNA would be better pay, but tougher work probably. I also need to see what the hours would be. It wouldn't be too bad for next semester because I have a lighter class load. Only my Tuesdays and Thursdays are busy. All I have Wednesdays are a bio lab, and I will probably have orchestra on Mondays and Wednesdays in the evenings. I could always work tuesdays and thursdays in the evenings.

My midterms went well. I think I have maintained at least a B average in all of my classes. I have to make up a chemistry lab in a couple of weeks which is fine. After I do that I should be okay for the semester.

I found a boyfriend, which I am really happy about. His name is Chris, and he is amazing for me. I was not expecting to meet anyone like him for a long time. We will probably hang out this weekend. It feels weird to sleep alone now because I am with him a lot at night. It's just perfect because he is the first person I have found that I have both a romantic and physical connection to. Usually it is one or the other. He is also a good friend and makes me laugh hardcore. That is important to me.

It sucks to be broke...

you oughta know

2006-10-10T18:19:00.000-05:00

i want you to know that i'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theater
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother

'cause the love that you gave that we made
Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, 'til you died
But you're still alive !

And i'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross i bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, i thought you should know
Did you forget about me mr. duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
*****It was a slap in the face how quickly i was replaced*****
And are you thinking of me when you fuck her?????????

'cause the love that you gave that we made
Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, 'til you died
But you're sill alive

And I'm here to remind you,
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair, to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

'cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me
And i'm not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time i scratch my nails down someone else's back
I hope you feel it...well can you feel it!

Watermelon Flavored Lube

2006-09-17T22:31:00.000-05:00

So I have been here for about 2 weeks now. However, it seems like I've been here forever. So far, I'm loving the whole college lifestyle. Classes and homework kind of suck, but are necessary. Living in a dorm isn't bad. I can see why people would want to move out after their freshman year. The food has gotten progressively worse, but is still edible, and there's always ice cream. The beds are comfortable, but lofts are a pain when it comes to changing sheets. I also think I have a huge bump on my head from smacking it on the ceiling everytime I wake up in the morning. Living in a dorm is a great way to meet people, including but not limited to; Kristie (my ever-awesome roommate), Collin, Kyle, Felix, JT, Sara, Lauren!, and some others. We have good times when the homework is all done. I think my parents would be proud of me since I set my own bedtimes now. If I do say so myself, they are very reasonable.

Classes themselves aren't really THAT bad. It's just school, except different. I figured out that I walk about 6 miles a day, and usually briskly since I have a limited amount of time to get from the west bank to the east bank. I don't really have a favorite at this point. I do love my psychology lecturer right now. I think we have him for 2 more lectures, but I want him the whole semester. He's british and funny. It's a great acomplishment to make biological psych. interesting, and damn did he do it. Historical Science is really interesting also. I'm glad I did that for my history core and not American History... again. Right now we are learning about the Greeks and such, so it's all new stuff. For my nursing pre-req I only had to take Chem 1011, which is the easy chemistry. It's nice because it's mostly review from 11th grade. I needed review anyways.

The thing I got involved with this semester is Campus Orchestra. Campus Orchestra is the orchestra intended primarily for non-music majors. I'm really glad I found out about it. It's really laid back in saying that there was no formal audition and the conductor is extremely awesome. It's fun also because the music is challenging. Like, UND honor orchestra 1st violin challenging, and I'm 2nd violin in orchestra this year. I'm just glad I got involved with something while I'm down here. That will be it for this semester though. I don't have time for anything else.

Well, I'm gonna start my nursing sem. paper shortly. Tata.

french roast peace coffee is the shit

2006-09-07T10:19:00.000-05:00

Well, I am here. This is pretty darn crazy I think. I have been down at the U for 5 days or so. I heart my dorm. I heart my roommate. I heart my neighbors. I heart my CAs. Classes? They are okay I suppose. Haha. I have had 2 days of class, including Wednesday, which is my busiest day of the week. Today I only have one discussion class, so I'm pretty pumped. I'm super excited for my multiculturalism comp. class, because we get to do cool stuff like go to the Fred and write what we think an art piece represents. I also have my chair placement audition and meeting today with the conductor of Campus Orchestra. That is gonna be fun. It works out perfectly because it's twice a week rehearsal in the evenings. I love playing college level pieces. It's so much funner than high school orchestra.

I also discovered the co-op by Middlebrook and it's coffee in all it's goodness. Peace coffee is sooo damn good. I'm so glad I bought a coffee maker at Target night, even though it was crazy at Target. I'm not a huge organic food person, but I do love organic coffee now. I'm just kind of sitting in my dorm because I don't have class until 11:15.

The whole thing about freshman 15 is crap here. I am eating less and walking (aka exercising) more. I think it's because I got the 2 meal a day plan. For breakfast I bought myself some cereal and milk that I just eat in the room. Pretty sure my pants got more loose. I'm doing the freshman -15.

I was reading through some myspace bullatins and someone wrote that Crookston schools had to ban oil paint. What the F is that?!?!?! I am gonna have to go down there and go ape-shit on the place! Oil paint is the best kind. Besides, people should be able to try both acrylic and oil to see what they prefer in the long run. Stupid state health inspectors. It's probably because of pregnant people actually. They can't be around paint thinner. How bout they ban pregnancy in high school instead?

Well, I'm done ranting. I'm gonna go read some comp. stuff before class today. Tata.

me duele la cabeza...

2006-08-20T18:30:00.000-05:00

wow, summer is gone... wow...

i figure i can write a bit..

ox cart days came and went. i really didnt go to much at all. i went to miss crookston, which was awesome. al won, so i'm really excited for her. she totally deserves it. i also loved her dance. it was cute. yesterday i went down to the park for like, 45 minutes. there were too many bees for me to handle. i dont feel like having my leg (or which ever body part gets stung) swell up to 3 times it's normal size again. i went down today just to get some fatty fried fair food. i figure i only eat cheese curds once a year, so my arteries are safe. i was gonna go back today, but i started packing instead. uck. we also went to the parade last night, it was the same as usual, but i wanted to see taushia, al, and the miss crox girls. i also ran into zandi and brice which was cool cuz i prolly wont see them again before i leave. on thursday night i was thinking about going to battle of the bands or whatever, but i decided to rent a movie, and ended up talking to the alex for like, 2 hours at vob.

before ox cart days i went on a rather impromptu trip to la crosse wisconsin. i had to go to brainerd for my grandma's 80th, so i figured since i was halfway, i'd visit my dad's family in la crosse. it was a good time. i have some darn cute little cousins. we went on a boat ride and saw some crazy waterskiiers that did all the pyramids and such. it was a long drive, but worth it.

i finished working on july 30th. it was sad. but at least someone called in so i got pulled back to the special care unit, which is my favorite place anyway. one of my goals is to go up there and visit the residents before i head out.

it is sooo weird because a lot of my friends have gone to school already, and i only just started packing today. i leave on sept 1, move in on the 2nd. i'll be in middlebrook which is nice cuz i appreciate the semiprivate bathrooms. i'm also surrounded by theater majors :D. my goals before i leave are to at least talk to everyone. hopefully hang out individually. i've seen some people at miss crox and ox cart, but i didnt get a good chance to talk to many people, well cept for the alex at vob.

well, i'm gonna go do... something...

derek jeter sucks a rod

2006-07-11T15:40:00.000-05:00

well, here i am...

i recently went to cleveland for a family vacation. was pretty fun, although there really isnt anything to do in cleveland cept for go to the rock and roll hall of fame, and baseball games. yeah, thats it. oh, and they have this fricken awesome restaurant called the "winking lizard". food is good, cheap, and they have pet iguanas in there to admire. for tourism, cleveland sucks. you cant find help anywhere when it comes to public transportation. after cleveland we went to stay at arrowwood resort for my dad's hospital conference thingy. riverview pays our tab, so it was lovely. it was also nice to hang with people not in my immediate family since i'd been with them for a week or so. also, grady sizemore is fricken gorgeous, even if he sucked at the ball games we went to.

today i have been sitting around, as i work the next three days in a row beginning tonight. oh well, i need money. its been a while since i've worked.

i dont really have any plans for the rest of the summer. i'm hoping to go on a couple of solo trips, either by car or plane. i have 5 places in mind, but i prolly only can do 2 of them. one im gonna try to do is go visit an aunt in washington in august or something.

im really excited for ox cart days this year. i dont know why. prolly cuz its the last big shebang before i move to the cities. it'll be weird seeing people younger than me in miss crookston. i'm rooting for alex t. all the way! she's pretty much awesome. well, im gonna go veg out somemore before i go to work. tata

and its time to blog...

2006-06-16T16:32:00.000-05:00

oh boy, have i ever been neglecting this thing. i should really stop that.

a lot has gone on in the past month. i am now officially a crookston high school alumnus or whatever you call us types. wahoo? graduation was nice. luckily in a small town graduation doesnt last too darn long. i was glad to get out of the hot gym and my sweaty gown.

before graduation was senior skip day. i honestly had a blast and the day went by way too quickly. it wasnt a cold day out, but the morning was cloudy. of course i had to be thrown in the lake before it warmed up... and when i finally dried i was thrown in again.... twice... but the whole thing was a total blast and i realize that most of my classmates, even if im not friends with them, are pretty fun to hang out with.

the night of graduation i went to my first (and only) senior bonfire, which turned out to be a free for all. i didnt know most of the people. after being bored for half an hour or so and rumors that the party would be busted, i left. it was pretty pointless.

i have now gone from being a chs student to being pummelled down to the U. after my first solo drive to the cities, i experienced the joy that is new student orientation. ugh, the first day of orientation is sooooooo long! half of the stuff i heard was stuff i already knew. its like the first day of school when you have to go through the handbook. we got to pick our own roommates and luckily i found someone who was nice and normal. we basically stuck together that night. after making a brief appearance at the orientation's gophers after dark, we went back to frontier to watch a movie. both being extremely tired, we didnt make it all the way through. the second day of orientation is much better. you actually get to do stuff. after meeting with my awesome adviser, i signed up for classes and was done with everything around noon. thank goodness i was staying with my aunt that night. i went to her house and took a looong nap. i wouldnt have wanted to drive back that day.

since orientation i havent really done anything. when i finally had the opportunity last night to hang out with people, i stayed home with my mom cuz she got a movie and i would have felt guilty leaving her. however, my mood right now is that i need more of a social life. the only time i see people other than my family is at work. meh. hopefully my social life wont completely evaporate. this summer would be extremely long if that happened.

well, im gonna go... eat... or something...

2 months!

2006-05-03T21:29:00.000-05:00

i almost made it two months without posting. jeez. its been sooo crazy i have barely had a chance to check my email.

we had our play. i think it went well for all performances. of course there are minor incidents like me forgetting to set half of our props, but oh well, it all works out fine in the end. i got a lot of compliments on my voice which is funny, cuz i didnt sing until... 2 months ago? i loved the costumes in the play because everyone was so colorful. thank goodness for phyllis. and chuck, too, cuz i sort of tripped over some of the set and sent a foundation piece flying 20 feet in the other direction. it was a good one. all the klutzes out there would have been proud.

prom was this past weekend. i think it was fun for the most part. i had an orange dress which rocked. i also have my blonde hair back and a savage tan ( not really, but im not too pasty). after a round of embarrassing pictures at my house, we took pictures at alex t.'s. i have yet to get most of my pictures developed, but im sure i'll post em on facebook when i get to it. grand march was the same as always, except with brett being on student council we were 9th in line. it was cool to see everyone else go down. the dinner had pretty crappy food i think. last year's was much better. i did like the mardi gras decorations though. the dance was pretty fun, everyone had a good time. bede was also pretty fun this year. i didnt win as much as i did last year but oh well. there was a super funny comedian and brett and i got our charicature done. only bad thing was since bede is a new building my allergies were making me nuts. so right after bede i went to brett's and slept.

i want everyone to pray for alex t.'s mom. kari is getting to the end of her struggle. i sat with al some of yesterday and today. i brought her moolattes. mmm :P so everyone should show some support for their family as it is a very rough time.

speaking of rough times i had my ap calculus test today for 4 hours this morning. oh lordy. i did what i could do, so hopefully it is good enough for a 3. thats all i need for credit at the U. i want to pass cuz then i dont need any more math whatsoever. i need all the space next year for the buttload of sciences i have to take. its pretty rediculous.

well, i think that was a sufficient enough post for now. oh! also, since im cheap i havent sent out very many grad reception invites, but everyone IS invited, so be there or be square! (minakwa, may 20, 2-5pm) *mwah*

Agony! Misery! Woe!

2006-03-05T16:51:00.000-06:00

upcoming events:
into the woods, a musical performed by the talented cast at CHS - sometime in april?
prom, a colorful party with poofy dresses - end of april
my grad reception, food food food! at minakwa - may 20 (come even if i forgot to send u a card, hopefully i'll remember everyone)
graduation, hats off! - end of may

whew, senior year has gone by soooooo damn fast. i basically only have 2 more real months of high school. may doesnt count. i wont be doing a damn thing all may. our ap calc test is on may 3rd so that will be done quickly. we have finally gotten to integrals. they are pretty darn easy so far. once we advance with them im sure it will get worse, but whatever.

well, i have play practice pretty soon. tata

trapezius

2006-02-15T16:22:00.000-06:00

i have to work tonight.
i smell like dead cat juice.
i am hungry.
it's cold outside.
diet pepsi is gross.
my hip still hurts.
i had to quit dance.
i am technically single.
no one calls me... ever.
my car is making funny noises.
i have a lot of calculus homework.
..............

this was "why my life sucks right now" a poem by jeano the complainer

SOMEONE S#!T ON THE COATS

2006-01-11T19:34:00.000-06:00

Encyclopedia of Aggravation: Letter B
--BARNEY--
Few, if any, beloved children's characters have inspired the kind of loathing that PBS's purple dinosaur Barney has. The star of the two-to-three year old set made his debut in 1992. By 1993 retailers were selling about $500 million worth of licensed merchandise. That year also marked the height of the new sport of Barney Bashing. "I Hate Barney" web sites and newsletters proliferated. Some shopping mall Barneys were quite literally bashed. While Barney's popularity has waned slightly from his 1993 heyday, the show is still highly rated. Kids still love it. Adults still hate it, and many hate it with a passion.

ahhhh, dane cook is a fabulous person. i am currently listening to one of his cds. i love that he is hilarious but not extremely dirty. its a fresh change.

one act is coming along. i have more memorized than i thought i did. i dont have all that many lines cept in this one scene called jock block. i dont quite have that one down yet. otherwise, its doing alright. we have our public performance on the 24th and subsections is on the 26th.

school is crazy. i was working on our final calc project. we did that instead of a final. it seemed nice because i was doing this project and i could do it just fine. problem is, i went in to froiland and found out that i was doing the thing completely wrong. instead of easy trig that i could do very well, it turned into proving that trig while using implicit differentiation and related rates (which people in college skip cuz its so hard). i was so frustrated i kicked micah. it takes a lot for anyone to kick micah.

i have been teaching the boys of mr chs their opening dance number. its a beatles medley this year. the dance isnt extremely hard. im surprised that the guys have caught on to everything so fast. but tho they are fast learners, they are extremely immature. when im ready to go on they decide to walk around and leave the pattern they were in. then it takes time to reassemble and so on. also, they changed half of my choreography into pelvic thrusts. *sigh*

well i suppose i shall go, im gonna go chill at al d.'s tonight, heehee, al d. nice name...

it's gonna be a happy new year!

2006-01-04T19:24:00.000-06:00

wow, its been a month since i've posted last. shame shame *slaps self* lets see, where to begin...

dance went good, until i discovered my hip is hurt, so i havent been dancing much for the past month or so. i went to dance yesterday, but i couldnt do much but walk patterns, and that made my hip hurt. eesshhhyyy. it feels better today tho. i should be good to go in a couple of weeks according to my doctors. we have started learning an aida dance for competition. (some robe dance, i forget what its called exactly) but they have some grand forks company person doing lead. pshhh. oh well.

i made one act this year. im one of the 4 main people along w/ gillian, reagan, and ogie. its coming along alright. everything is blocked and whatnot. now we need to memorize lines and all that crap.

mr. chs is coming up. i have been choreographing my butt off today cuz of the opening number for the guys. i also have been writing down the dance i'll do as a solo for a filler during the show. its in my head, i just want it written down or i'll forget it by then. it's a beatles theme this year, so its gonna be muy fun.

christmas came and went. it really wasnt all that special cuz i had to work christmas eve and day. i also worked new years. 3rd holiday in a row babeee. i did enjoy seeing all of my mature college friends who i missed so very much.

i honestly have nothing else to say right now. im too bad.

I wanna dance!

2005-12-02T16:03:00.000-06:00

Encyclopedia of Aggravation: letter "A"

Entry: Airline Food (see also air travel delays, armrest wars, and legroom on airplanes)

"Punishment for small children." That's how Ed Stewart described Southwest Airlines food to U.S. News and World Report -- and he's thair spokesman! Southwest spends about a quarter per passenger on meals. Since 1992, airlines have been serving cheaper and cheaper meals -- if they serve meals at all. In 1992, if you bought a domestic or international seat you got a meal that cost on average $6.11. By 1998, the cost of the meal had dropped to $4.49. If you need more information on airline food you might enroll in England's University of Surrey, which is home to the first professor of airline food. The University, located 20 miles from Gatwick Airport, offers courses on in-flight catering.

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what up y'all? i have been extremely busy in the past couple of weeks. Where to begin?

Thanksgiving was nice. I had to work that morning, but it wasnt so bad. We ate our huge dinner once I got home. Of course, turkey makes you tired, so I fell asleep immediately after dinner. That night I went to RENT for the 2nd time. The musical is the best, but I still liked the movie a lot, and Adam Pascal was very cute. I was surprised. Thanksgiving weekend was nice because I saw all of the long lost members of the former "crew". Well, not ALL, but a lot of them. That was a nice evening.

Now, I'm dealing with dance recitals. We had our first show yesterday of "hats off to the classics". Yesterday went alright. I feel like I could do a lot better, however. Hopefully tonight will go well. Last weekend was tough because I couldnt make it to a couple of practices as we had a bunch of freezing rain on Sunday. It wasnt very fun as I went in the ditch on Sunday with poor Bridget. Oh well, we got out alright. So since we didnt get as many practices as we should have i feel like this show was thrust upon us at great speed. after the show tonight we're gonna have a cast party at mary's, so that should be a good time. hopefully someone remembers cranium. one nice thing about dance is that all of the people in the competition troupe (about half of sr. company and a few from company) are super duper nice. and its my one moment of glory since i am the oldest in that group, so job gave me the solo part for upon this rock and we're splitting mein heir again. we havent started any other dances for competition. we mostly worked on upon this rock because we are performing it at this recital.

well, im gonna head out cuz me and my dad are going to applebee's so i can have some spinach and artichoke dip. mmmmm... *drools*

meow

2005-11-10T17:12:00.000-06:00

Encyclopedia of Aggravation: Letter A) Air Travel Delays (see also armrest wars, and legroom on airplanes)
- The Gannett News service says if a flight is 45 minutes long, you can expect your journey to be about four hours when you consider checkin, takeoff, landing, collecting luggage, and leaving the airport. When you add in a delay due to weather conditions in Timbukthree, your 45-minute flight could end up as an entire day of lugging heavy carry-ons, sitting in loud waiting areas and trying to sleep in chairs. Try to keep your temper on the ground. The more people shout at airling employees, the more irritated and short tempered they become themselves. Pretty soon the skies are rather unfriendly. That doesn't help anybody.

I havent posted for a while because there really isnt much to post. My life has for the most part been the same as always.

Dance is going fine. We are learning and finishing dances for the holiday show on tuesdays and learning competition dances on sundays. Its all been working out pretty well. the competition group should be pretty strong since there are a few people from company that are in it. i think im gonna do another solo this year, just because it is my last year. when else will i have a chance to do a solo. definitely not in ndbc's shows.

school is the same. i realized today that i cant wait to get out of here for so many reasons. my advanced bio class is so loud and obnoxious, and its filled with a lot of people that i just cant stand. lots of immaturity. i also am really sick of sophomore gossip and all that. i really dont care who is pregnant or who cheated on who with who. i think it is a lot less entertaining when the people are so much younger than you. gol, silly kids. i also saw a girl getting her bellybutton pierced in the bathroom by some other girl, and they were using a safety pin. how safe is that? oh well. the only challenging class i have this year is my advanced placement calc class. froiland's a good guy tho. he wrote me a kick-ass recommendation letter for honors at the CLA.

work has been the same. last saturday i worked a morning shift which i havent done in forever. the morning shift is so much easier, except for the waking up part. you get everything done right away in the morning, and the rest of the day is a breeze. also, most of the residents seem a lot more pleasant in the morning. i also picked up a couple days this week. they were just 5 to 9's. i like it cuz i get incentive pay, whoo! extra money! and then some!

well, i think im gonna head out cuz im really hungry
-peace

mmmm doughnuts...

2005-10-14T10:50:00.000-05:00

well, im sitting in art sem right now. i have been working very hard on my painting, but today i decided to take a day off. teehee. my painting is coming along well though. im on the third panel thinger. this one is purple. i have been set back a ways however because of the stupid studio arts class getting red oil paint all over my finished blue oil painting. grrrr... oh well.

other than that, school has been going well. most of my classes are way easier than last year's. it's awesome. advanced bio is sooo fricken easy, but i dont like that class cuz there are a lot of really obnoxious people in it. i hope my 2nd semester class isnt so bad. calculus is my hardest class by far, but i am actually understanding limits and all the concepts that apply to them. with froiland its easier than pre-calc.

my birthday is in four days! yay! my mom is bringing cupcakes to my calc class as i passed that with froiland. mmm... cupcakes. im also bringing some to the alzheimer's unit later that day hopefully. i dont know what else im gonna do on my birthday. at first i was gonna go to grand forks, get that tatoo i'm getting, go to paradiso with some friends, and the like. then i wanted also to spend time with my parents and eat supper with them, then i remember that i have to go to dance on tuesday. *sigh* i think what will happen is my family will celebrate on a different day, i'll chill with friends for a while on tuesday, and hopefully at least make my 7 - 8 o'clock dance class, cuz we're patterning on tuesday in that class. i also dont know if i'll end up getting my tatoo that day or not. i still have to call them and make an appointment. so, i guess my birthday is gonna be spread out over a week or so, cuz also, me and my mom are going gambling a couple days after my birthday cuz its mea weekend next week. *double sigh* im gonna be busyful.

well, i think the bell is gonna ring soon, which will signal lunch, and im hungry, so fare thee well!

quiero comida.

2005-09-21T21:15:00.000-05:00

Encyclopedia of Aggravation:
Book A - Acne: when you reach that special age when you start to think about trying to attract a boyfriend or girlfriend, you become preoccupied with your appearance -- just then Mother Nature reveals she has a sick sense of humor. Your skin begins to change, and oily shenn covers your face and pimples pop up everywhere. what is more, the stress of having acne can give you acne. as if having your face erupt before the big date isn't upsetting enough, some acne medications may cause depression all by themselves. accutane, an acne treatment, has been cited by the food and drug administration as having depression as a side effect. its manufacturer denies this allegation, claiming that it is the severe acne, not the treatment, which causes depression in teenagers.

howdy y'all. i just watched the first episode of america's next top model and wow. its gonna be another interesting season. i swear that show is addicting. im definitely taping it when i dance or work on wednesdays. there's a girl named nicole from grand forks on the show. i have no idea who she is, but she is from a place 25 miles or so from here, so that's kinda cool. she doesnt really seem like the type to win, but then again people can really surprise you.

we finished up our little dance thing for the fundraiser. it was sad, there were like, no people there either night because mary and job were asking for a $20 donation. that is just rediculous. oh well, it was kinda fun to get to know all the ndbc people better, and i'm pleased to tell you that they are "mostly harmless". lol. sorry, hitchhiker's guide quote. it happens sometimes.

school has been about the same since it started. yesterday we took our first calculus test and i think it was the worst 50 minutes i've ever gone through in my life so far. well, i dont know about that, but it was still pretty bad. froiland has taught us way too fast. no one has really caught on to anything. besides that class, school is really easy. i totally aced my spanish 2 test and i think i did pretty well on our social test also. also, my sr. book is due in a week so im rushing to get that done as i will have almost no time to complete it.

i sent my application in for the u of m yesterday. whew, glad that's out of the way. i'm also meeting with a st. kate's rep tomorrow because i might apply there also. if i do go there i'd definitely need financial aid or scholarships of some sort becuz its a little bit expensive. my cousin went there tho and she really loved it. i guess the campus is gorgeous.

i will be gone friday through sunday in minneapolis, which will be awesome. first off missing a day of school is always appreciated, especially when you get homework ahead of time. it sucks tho cuz i know that i'll have to type a paper by monday and get my sr. book done by next week, and those arent really things i can do on the road. oh well, U2 is worth it. im very very excited for that concert. also, dashboard confessional is opening for them and since i think dashboard is pretty good im excited for that also. we are coming back really early on sunday however because im performing at homecoming coronation, which should be fun. its not like i woulda made the court, lol.

well, i suppose i'll head off, tata.

let there be peace on earth

2005-09-18T21:47:00.000-05:00

Encyclopedia of Aggravation:
book A - Academic Language: Why do academics insist on writing in language that makes the reader squint and develop a headache? It is simply a matter of style, say defenders of dense challenging prose. Different forums have different rules. People magazine has a different style from the New York Times, which has a different style than the Sears Catalog. Every profession has its jargon. Academic specialties have more than their share because they are expressing complicated and often new ideas.

hey all, it was a pretty normal day for moi today. since it is sunday i slept for most of the day, even though i fell asleep pretty early last night. it just felt good to stay in bed all morning. i played for the valley fiddler thing at the villa this afternoon then went to a fun filled day of dance.

we had another competition troupe class today. and yet again this week we didnt start learning any dances. it was a technique class. not that i dont like technique class, but i get plenty of those already. oh well. it still felt good, i just wanna relearn mein heir really badly. we also had a nice practice of cleaning up let their be peace on earth for this hurricane benefit thingy we are doing tomorrow. a plus for that is that i get to see my jesi! she is doing some readings with the theater troupe peoples.

yesterday was fun as i went with taushia and gillian to the potato bowl parade and we rode in a car with a really nice driver guy. i saw jesi at the parade too which was odd. i also saw e-wohl and he seemed really happy and optimistic. it was pretty crazy. i guess im suppose to go visit him and petey in their dorms sometime. i dont know if i'll ever have time to do that tho.

well, i suppose i should go try to chill out in bed or something. im sure i wont sleep cuz i had some passion green tea smoothie at caribou coffee. everyone should try one of those. peace out!

life, the universe and everything

2005-09-11T14:04:00.000-05:00

HHGG comes out on dvd tomorrow! yay!!!! i am so getting that this week as soon as i have a chance.

school was pretty average last week. calculus is proving to be nice and hard. we are only on our 2nd assignment, and its tough. i think i'm understanding it for the most part so far tho. i also have done quite a bit on my senior book and have one entry so far in my journal. eegghh.. enough of school. i have to go back tomorrow.

dance is going okay so far. today we are going to start competition numbers and re-learn "peace" so we can do it at some fundraiser for the hurricane. i hope all that goes well. i think gillian is driving today which will be nice since i'm the only one who has driven so far. and then she has the nerve to ask me for gas money.... wow... that kinda pissed me off but oh well. im not giving her gas money cuz i will be driving half the time so i figure we'd be even if we just took turns. oh well...

well, i really have nothing else to say and i dont know why i blogged in the first place. later

coffee is awesome

2005-09-04T16:34:00.000-05:00

well we had our first 2 days of school recently. my classes arent so bad really.
-spanish 2, i forgot a lot of stuff, but i can usually catch on quick so this will be a breeze.
-orchestra, same old, cept that theres little people that take a long time to tune their instruments
-art sem, easy stuff, im gonna do a huge painting
-us government, shmidt is so easy, this wont be bad at all
-calc, wow, at least froiland loves us for taking it, we got to do stretches do de-stress ourselves the other day, this is the class i need coffee for
-advanced bio, easy easy easy
-sr. english, lots of stuff to do, but i've already started on some stuff

i am not procrastinating this year!!!! (i'll just keep telling myself that)

well i dont have enough time to write more cuz i have to go to work now. grrr.. oh well, i have tomorrow off from everything cuz its not my holiday to work and we dont have school! yay!

p.s. we won on friday against trf. it was a good game. i got to wear my pretty (haha, pretty ugly) senior shirt.

urrgggg...

2005-09-01T07:29:00.000-05:00

i have a few minutes before school so i thought i might blog...

today is the first day of school. poopoo on that. my schedule for this semester is as follows...
-spanish 2, thought since i did spanish one i might as well get 2 over with. on the plus side there's a new teacher!
-orchestra, same old, i may not make first chair this year as i havent practiced at all, but who knows
-art seminar, woot, my one class im looking forward to alot. i hope to get a few oil paintings in as well as my brick
-A lunch, wow, no one has A lunch, it sucks. i may end up going home for lunch most of the time, we'll see
-senior social, yeah, required class
-calculus AB, froiland is teaching so i know i'll understand this year, i hope i pass the AP test at the end of the year cuz then i get a calculus credit or two
-advanced bio., also looking forward to this class as it sounds easy and i like to cut stuff up, i've always like biology a lot
-senior english, another required class, but it seems pretty fun/easy
well, thats my schedule for the first semester. i pretty much have the same classes 2nd semester just juggled around a bit. i also dont remember my lock com. i should go get my paper that says it. oh well. i also invested in a backpack this year cuz all the classes that have books are in my afternoon, and going back and forth to my locker is a big pain in the butt. well, i hope this year goes well for us all, college people and highschoolers alike.

ive gone to two days of dance in a row now and i can really feel it today. i couldnt bend over to put my socks on this morning. i feel like an old man. my neck is also very sore from releasing my head during layouts on tuesday. im really wondering how they can put me in company cuz all the girls are really good flexible long legged awesome dancers. (cept abbi cuz she's a short really good flexible awesome dancer) i have no center yet, although its comin back cuz i could do pirouettes yesterday. (but only on my left cuz my shoe was sticky for right pirouettes) but i actually got in a couple triples. woot. tuesday i couldnt even do singles right.

we finished our senior tye dyed shirts yesterday. well, mine was done on tuesday and i picked it up yesterday. i think they all turned out pretty awesome. the back of mine sucks, but oh well. the front looks good. the front is all the same and says "c-town seniors" with a big "c" on it. the back of mine has erickson and 06, but my 06 turned out really huge and looks like a 3 year old did it. *sigh* i can do art but not "arts and crafts". the girls who tyedyed them did a really good job tho. props to them.

well, i suppose i should get ready to go to school now. ug... peace out.

woooooooooooeeeeeeeeee!!!!

2005-08-30T22:36:00.000-05:00

im not gonna write much i just thought i'd proclaim my happiness!

i got invited into the REAL north dakota ballet company tonight at dance so im very excited. i just thought i'd be stuck in apprentice sr. company. woot. and i will most likely get a scholarship so i dont have to pay for actual classes, just the competition class which is only 20 bucks a month! yay!!! okay, well im really sore and tired from dance so im gonna go buhbye now. buhbye!

a lone leftover...

2005-08-29T19:36:00.000-05:00

everyone is leaving! agghhh!! we just said our farewells to betso today and that sucked cuz betso is awesome and i wont see her till thanksgiving or something like that. and alex and amanda are leaving on friday so that will suck a lot also. and then peter is going to fricken boston on wednesday. i doubt we'll see him very often. i guess i'll miss him. lol, j/k. i'll miss him and his tendency to insult/make fun of me. i guess i wont get too lonely this year as i still have gillian, brett, and some other random c-towners that i can occasionally hang with. plus, i'll be fricken busy with schoolwork, applying to colleges, scholorships, housing, going to dance, and working. *stressfully pulls out a chunk of hair* i'll be bald by christmas at this rate.

well, besides saying bye to betso today i joined with a bunch of other senior girls to make the traditional tye-dye t-shirts for the year. we wanted them done before the first game on friday. i guess im in the "cool-crowd" now? haha, no i dont think so. but its awesome that everyone in my class is so open and stuff isnt inclusive to just the popular crowd. i did the back of my t-shirt today and it looks like some 2 year old kid did it. lol. oh well. i can do art, but when it comes to arts and crafts like this im terrible. its sad.

im kinda looking forward to starting school this year cuz of being a senior. i think it will be a pretty fun year despite all the stress. i finished up my school shopping yesterday as i had to find a couple more pairs of jeans. i finally own 2 pairs of jeans that fit my perfect in length and one pair thats a little long but fit my butt good. woot! i also found a pair of cords that fit pretty well. i also discovered that i really like sweaters, so i bought a couple of them also. with the high school always being freezing i think it was a good investment. i also bought all my notebooks, organized and labeled everything, even tho i know that by next week everything will be all disorganized once again. that reminds me that i should go put a few things in my locker. i dont think i'll put too much cuz my locker gets soooo bad by the end of the year if i have too much crap in it. arg, thats enough about school.

dance starts tomorrow. im happy because i feel so out of shape its terrible. in the summer it sucks cuz i just dont care if im out of shape... until dance starts up again. i know i'll be sore for the first week or so. oh well, im lookin forward to seeing mary and job again on a regular basis. it sucks cuz on sundays we have the competition practices and they are from 330 to 5, and i work some sundays at 5. arg... i told the villa i wanted 530's or mornings on sundays but noooo. oh well, i cant complain much. work has been really good to me and my busyness. on a happier note, i work in the special care unit all month. :D

its kinda funny cuz my mom was talking to my dad about me staying here and going to umc for a year. (hell no is THAT gonna happen.) she doesnt want me leaving and i suppose i understand as being the oldest and first to go off on my own. but i told her im gonna be here for a year. im not gonna move out or anything cuz i dont want to pay for my own food until i have to. :P

well, im gonna go watch a movie with the fam now. peace!

1st runner up!

2005-08-22T17:43:00.000-05:00

well ox cart days has come and gone. it wasnt really super exciting this year aside from the pageant and all the activities associated with it, but it was a good time nonetheless.

miss crookston went awesome. the whole night went by so quickly. we had our interviews in the afternoon. mine went okay, nothing great, but i didnt bomb it or anything. the judges were very personable. it was a lot easier than expected. i went home in between the interview and the pageant and took a much needed nap. the pageant went well. the opening number was awesome and i'll miss those fringy costumes very much. i'll also miss my big curly hair. i cant do things like that to my own hair. my piano piece went awesome. i had no idea i could play it that fast, but i did, and it went great. that was my best part of the evening. evening gown was really easy. i think i did alright, but i didnt like my question. i had no idea how to answer it and impress the judges. it was weird. oh well, it went fine. i was so excited for the end to see who got what. at that point i didnt care how i did, i was just curious to see who the next miss crookston was. i ended up winning talent which was my highlight. becca won evening gown and taushia won interview and miss congeniality. the results were gillian getting 2nd runner up which is awesome. i got 1st runner up, which is exactly what i was aiming for :P. and taushia got miss crookston. im soooo darn happy for her. she'll do so awesome and she's such a nice person. (which is why she also got miss congeniality) so now we know that you can win both miss crookston and miss congeniality.

the rest of ox cart days was spent making appearances, judging stuff, and wearing my pretty sash. being in the parade was fun too. i liked seeing a bunch of different people i knew. i remember seeing a couple of residents from the villa also which was really neat. im happy they got to see that. me, taushia, and gillian are going to 2 more parades soon also. barnesville is on saturday and the potato bowl parade is in september. it shall be a fun time. im glad that its pretty much over and i can go back to normal. the experience was one i wont ever forget tho.

well, i suppose i'll go eat supper now. my appetite is back since im not stressed anymore!

Perseid meteor shower tonight

2005-08-11T22:56:00.000-05:00

well i havent written for a while and i have a lot of catching up to do, so here goes...

miss crookston has pretty much taken over my life since august started. rehearsals have gone well. im proud cuz i havent procrastinated anything really. my piano piece is all memorized and ready to go. i think i have everything else i need too. i have gone to grand forks 5 times in the last week or so. luckily, my mom had to go today so i didnt need to waste any more gas. today i basically did the last things i'll need to do in grand forks. i got some earrings for evening gown and sparkly hair stuff. i also got a shirt for my interview outfit and picked up my headshot from behl's. i like it a lot. i even got my nails done in a french manicure by some asian guy who didnt speak a word of english. they look awesomely cool tho. only 8 bucks! we dont have another rehearsal for a few days now, but starting monday its gonna be a crazy busy week. monday is also our social with parents and sponsors. everyone who can should go to the pageant on friday at 730.

well, school is just around the corner. im sooooo freeking happy to be a senior this year. im gonna try to have a great year cuz its my last here. we had registration today. i got all the classes i wanted. woopie! i hope calculus isnt too bad. froiland can teach good so hopefully i'll understand. art sem all year should help keep me sane. i'll hopefully do a couple paintings and then who knows what. i have time to think about that. maybe i'll play with photoshop some more.

work has been going smoothly. i worked today and yesterday and have 3 days left in a row before a long break for ox cart days. tomorrow is pay day too. yay! i forgot about that. i can wear jeans to work.

well, im spacing out in front of the tv and can think of nothing else to write. damn you adult swim. peace out.

~free your mind~

2005-07-28T21:29:00.000-05:00

well i have been perdy busy lately.

the miss crookston preparations are going smoothly. we have had only 2 practices which were for the production number at the beginning. it is taught by the lovely alex dorman. its a cute dance to "all that jazz" so its right up my alley. im really happy that the other girls are catching on really easily for not being dancers. its gonna be a pretty fun group this year. i have done pretty much everything i can do so far. i got my hair trimmed cuz it needed it. i scheduled a day for headshots with behl's. i can take more senior pictures later on. i also have almost all of my piano piece memorized. the only part i dont know is the very end which wont be hard to get. otherwise i occasionally forget a chord or two. it sounds a lot better than it did. i have confidence that it will be ready by our first talent rehearsal. it will for sure be ready by the pageant day. im gonna wear my prom dress for my evening gown cuz i looked around grand forks a bit and couldnt find anything i liked better than my prom dress. i also have a long black and white dress for my talent outfit. i hope everything continues to do this well and i hope i dont start to procrastinate. i've been real good so far.

i havent been working too much lately because of miss crookston, but last time i work i worked late anyways so i got some incentive pay for that. i work this weekend then i'll probably be working a few days that i have off in august. it'll be pretty crazy.

my dog is at the vets for the night. he had (ahem) his.. uh... ... well he was neutered. poor little guy. and on top of that yesterday he developed some type of doggy bronchitis. i slept down on the couch last night to make sure he was okay. therefore i got very little sleep as he had many coughing fits. we'll get him back (minus his balls) tomorrow. he must feel like pure crap. :(

well, i suppose that is all that has really taken up my life as of late. ttyl!

and now for something completely different...

2005-07-20T18:41:00.000-05:00

hey all. not a whole lot has been happening lately. since we got back from chicago i have worked... and worked... and not worked.

i went to a wedding the day after we got back. it was jenny boll's and um.. i think his name was josh? lol. it was a nice wedding. i dont get to see all of the boll's together very often. i hadn't seen steph's baby yet. he's a cutie. i didnt stay for the reception very long cuz there were no seats really.

i worked during the weekend. it wasnt too bad. on monday it was fun to sit around and do nothing. yesterday i met with my piano teacher so i can get crackin on the miss crookston thing. i was also suppose to work yesterday but they had 2 extras, and as i was put down as an extra i waited til everyone else got there and left. it was nice. i didnt feel like working yesterday anyways. i work on friday and saturday coming up. so, instead of working i ate a nice meal with my family and became a beta tester on deviant art. not bad for a day.

today i finished off my ice cream and yyeah... i really need to get more ambition for these days off. maybe tomorrow i'll go to the mt. st. benedict chapel to play on their piano. my piano is so out of tune it sounds awful, even while playing the cat and the mouse which isnt a very classic piece anyways.

well, im gonna go get something to eat. fare thee well.

the windy city

2005-07-15T12:18:00.000-05:00

well i got back from chicago yesterday. it was rather fun. i enjoyed myself even among the company of my family.

day 1: we went to arrow wood which is come resort by alexandria for a couple days cuz my dad had this meeting thing for the hospital board. i sat around at the outdoor pool all night. that was it. i ran into kirby, westy, and travis which was kinda odd.

day 2: we went to a beach at the resort, which was nice. i watched a lot of hbo. we also went to the water park that is connected to the hotel. it was pretty fun also.

day 3: ate breakfast with the heldstabs then left for the fargo airport. the flight from fargo to chicago was really smooth. the plane was sooo small compared to what i've been on before, but it wasnt a whole lot different flight-wise. we rode the subway from o'hare airport to downtown then caught a cab to our hotel, a holiday inn. we basically sat around and relaxed this first night. there was a nice outdoor pool at the hotel.

day 4: we went on a tour as proposed by my dad. it wasnt too bad, but listening to 4 hours of tour gets really boring. we ate at a really good pizza place, then went down to navy pier. i rode a 15 story tall ferris wheel and it was pretty damn high. i was scared. i got an ice cream cone after so it was all good.

day 5: we first went to a zoo. it was free, but it was a really nice zoo nonetheless. we went during feeding time so all the animals were up and hyper. i liked seeing the penguins. i think they are really cute. then my mom and i went to the art institute. little did we know that we went on a tuesday and admission is free on tuesdays. hurrah! we looked around in there for a while. i heart impressionism and monet. later that night we went to the hard rock cafe to eat. i was there in february so it wasnt a huge deal i guess.

day 6: we went to the field museum first. i saw the biggest most complete t-rex fossil found. a picture of it can be seen on my art site. it was scary. there, i bought brett a shirt. they also had cool mummy stuff and many other exhibits. it was too big to see everything. then i went and saw the "lion king". wow... just wow. i had shivers the entire time. it was awesome. very powerful. i also started dancing in my seat whenever music came on that we danced to this year in our lion king medley. so sad. after the lion king we relaxed in our hotel and ate takeout.

day 7: before we left we went to the billy goat tavern which is famous for a previous owner putting a hex on the cubs. they havent been in the playoffs yet i believe. i dont really know for sure. we took a cab up to the airport this time as the subway ride there was a disaster. we had a lot of time to sit in the airport so i shopped, read magazines, etc. our flight back was just as smooth as the first. the flight attendant handed out mints at the end of the flight. ive never had that happen before. back at home i went with my dad to get angus. then i went to bretts. realizing i forgot his shirt i took him back to my house where we hung out for a while.

well, that is the end of my trip. im sorry its so long. i tried to keep it to the point. my future plans are a wedding we are going to this afternoon. its jenny boll's. the reception is at 7. i also need to call my piano teacher and buy gillian a birthday present. arg. in better news, harry potter tomorrow! yay! i have to work, but only a 530 so it wont be so bad. well, im off.
-jeano

happy independence day!

2005-07-04T00:27:00.000-05:00

im bored so im writing again. im in a writing mood. at least its a new day technically.

well, for the fourth of july i will be doing... absolutely nothing. i work from 230 to 11. i think im feeling well enough to do that. i'd feel so bad calling in so i'll try to suck it up. i can always leave early if im dying. i actually dont know of anyones plans for tomorrow. my lack of human contact is shown. the only person i've really talked to is brett and he didnt know it was the 4th tomorrow... er... today... so yeah... i dont think my family is doing anything. usually we go down to my grandma's cuz she lives on a lake and they have pretty good fireworks across the lake, but this year we just decided to take it easy as we're going on vacation real soon neways. we shot off some fireworks tonight for me as i will miss them tomorrow. we almost succeded in lighting our lawn on fire, but we were ready with angus' new swimming pool just in case.

well i'm leaving on vacation soon. im actually not too excited for it. i dont know why. i think it's partly being sick and partly because of the fact that i was just in chicago this year. i guess we are going to alexandria on friday cuz we have a free stay at some fancy hotel because my dad is on the hospital board. all those meetings must have paid off. on sunday we are flying out of fargo to chicago. its a bit more expensive than flying out of minneapolis, but it would save us a day. we're in chicago for 4 nights then we fly home. so, its really not all that long of a trip. i guess it will be fun since we were in chicago in february and were really busy and had no time to see anything. i'm hoping that my mom and i can escape from the boys on occasion because we usually can find something fun to do. i doubt i'll want to shop a lot, but sometimes i like looking in random weird stores just for s's and g's.

well, im all signed up for miss crookston. (shoot me now) im doing it because jen said it was fun and the alex is our reigning miss crookston. i have to type up a lovely paper about myself tho and send it in. i missed the first meeting cuz i was at nina's, so i have no idea who else is in it. i think zandi signed up, but i dont know if she stuck with it or not. hopefully im not stuck with a bunch of dingbats. i think it will be fun. its a good excuse to not work during ox cart days, and being in a parade and wearing old dresses sounds like a good time. i dont know if i'd really want to win tho. that would mean i'd have to run around to different functions and perform stuff. eek. dangit, i need to practice piano. maybe i'll call my piano teacher tomorrow and meet with her this week. i really need to. im in bad shape. i think i'll get the cat and the mouse memorized and play that. its fun and its not long.

well, enough rambling. if you read this, you are insane. tootles!

can i swallow my tonsils?

2005-07-03T14:26:00.000-05:00

hola amigos. its that time of the year again. that time where its a beautiful summer week and i get painfully sick. last year it was the migraine in new york. the year before it was my wisdom teeth being taken out. (yeah, so that was intentional, but still) this year its a lovely bout of tonsilitis. it looks really disgusting. my tonsils are red, swollen, and full of pus... that was a bit graphic. oh well, in good news i dont need to work for a few days because of it. i'll feel really bad if i call in sick tomorrow tho as its a holiday and i work a full shift. oh well, we'll see what happens.

well, lets see, what has gone on... i was at nina's last week until wednesday. that was alot of fun. i went to my aunts a couple times which was nice cuz i never get to see her. she has an awesome beach. nina is doing well. we had a good time, even tho i was starting to not feel well. i got to meet a couple of her friends who were really funny. we went out to eat some and i got to visit my grandma the first day. i came home one day early cuz i didnt feel great and i didnt wanna go to an all night lockin then drive home the next day. i think this was for the best cuz the next day my tonsils began taking over my body.

since i've been sick i havent done a whole lot. brettski and mandalf stopped by last night. that was fun as i felt and probably looked like crap. it was nice to see people outside of my family tho. i was beginning to go insane. they got to look at the killer beasts known as my tonsils. its fun to gross people out. i've been watching a lot of movies also. i watched aliens at 5 in the morning a couple days ago. i've also been eating a lot of ice cream. i really like root beer floats. well, i have nothing else to say as my life is pretty boring right now. i'll step it up a bit when i swallow my tonsils. -jean

an ode to summer

2005-06-23T14:17:00.000-05:00

well lets see. its been a while since i've updated.

meunch left for minneapolis today. he'll be in new york for a while, but still. wont see him for a year. i just found out yesterday that his dad was a dentist, too. it's sad that i just found that out. i guess dentists in germany are richer than here. i dont think i could afford to be an exchange student, then go to new york and the carribean. jeez. we had a little party for him on tuesday night. that was fun. we got to watch biv's gay artsy films. it was pretty funny. we also watched the christmas video again since mike hadn't seen it yet. ah, to remember his english back in the day. "its crazy and cool together!"

went to the lake on sunday with petey, mike, brett, and stew. that was pretty fun. the only non-fun part was tubing in which the fall on the wavy lake felt like getting beaten up. pretty sure i hit my head one of those times because now my eyes feel strained and i feel dizzy like im concussed or something. lol. oh well, i'll manage. it was fun anyways.

i went to my first 2 dance classes at ndbc. it is strange. a lot of them seem really bitchy which kinda sucks. they dont want us intruding on their territory. its not our fault we have no where else to go. at least mary is really happy that we are going. she was all giddy. i have dance again today which should be fun. i didnt go to the dance camp because i was working and im glad i didnt cuz i didnt feel well on tuesday anyway. im hoping that i can get used to the people at ndbc and i also hope that they will be a little more accepting of us.

well, im done rambling for today. donde estan los monos?

whee?

2005-06-10T11:27:00.000-05:00

well its been pretty uneventful lately. i've been working, working, working.

lets see, well i had 3 days off earlier. that was nice. all i did pretty much was hang out with brett, the crew, and sleep. i went to grand forks and bought myself some stuff. that was nice, although my checkbook is really sad now. oh well. i'll manage until my next payday. crap, i have to pay my cell phone bill. mother f-er. i think i might have enough money.

on wednesday we saw claudia off. that was majorly sad, as claudia is awesome. after seeing her off at the gf airport we went and ate away our depression at paradiso. i had a huge burrito. then we went to coldstone for ice cream. mmm... i didnt remember that their waffle cones are enormous. on the way home we stopped and saw mandalf who was working at fisher's landing. i saw a crookston brochure. it was really sad. people would be so dissapointed if they went to visit crookston cuz the brochure makes it sound so historic, when all the historic buildings now are just apartments. oh well.

i worked yesterday. it seemed like it would start out as a bad day because we were short one person in the back (again). but as we got going on putting people to bed the check & change lady did some of our people and the people working up front helped also. i was actually done putting people to bed by 9ish. it was crazy. i was in the hardest group too. thats exactly how we need to work up there. most people do their group and leave, so it was nice to have people helping all around. it also feels good that the "crankiest" nurse likes me. i guess im not back in the unit much anymore cuz she is possesive of me.

well, today i'll hopefully just laze around before i have to work. after work im supposed to come home and go "straight to bed" as i have ACT's tomorrow. im really not too concerned about them. i am just hoping for a 27 or up so i can get into the U. well, i suppose i should shower. i smell. tata!

summer time!

2005-06-02T16:49:00.000-05:00

hooray! its finally here! i heart summer a lot. this has been my summer thus far...

last thursday and friday were technically school days, although i only needed to go to one and a half class periods on thursday. friday i had off. friday was graduation day. i took my mummy and we watched it. it was pretty fun. all the speeches were cool especially "ricky.. you are my brotha from anotha motha" hazaah! graduation night was rather uneventful unless you were a graduate. i sat around with brett and mandalf all night. it was a relaxing evening none the less. saturday i worked a 230. it kinda sucked cuz i was in a hard group with a really slow, although very nice so i wont be mad at her, lady. she ended up staying for me from 10 to 11 so i got off an hour early. :D hazaah for nice people! i went over to betso's for a little while and chilled with the gang. it was fun. alex a was there which was cool. he's a nice guy. its also nice that he hasnt graduated yet. he should join the "crew". sunday was uneventful. pretty sure i just chilled out at brett's until i had to work again at 230. sunday was nice though cuz i was in the scu. :D yay for the scu and its easiness. i got to sit around for an hour and read better homes and gardens magazines. i also made myself some tea. monday... hm.. i dont really remember monday all that much. memorial day. i didnt really do anything special with that. i think i was just at bretts, so, a usual day for me. :D tuesday was awesome as we went out to petey's lake cabin on island lake. the day was filled with fun and adventure. it was me, brett, petey, claud, mike, and wohl. first we went for a spin on a four wheeler and a six wheeler. i drove the six wheeler most of the time. petey took us out on some trails and such. we also got nice and muddy as we plowed through a mud puddle. he also had his jet ski out and was givin people rides on that. there was the "nice, scenic ride" and the "fun ride" which consisted of petey trying to throw you off the jet ski. the fun ride was actually quite fun. then mike took the four wheeler and brett and i took the six wheeler and just decided to drive them around for a while. our big mistake was that we let the german lead the way in the american forest. bad idea. after getting the six wheeler stuck in mud and pulling it out with the four wheeler, and mike leading us down a closed trail where the six wheeler had trouble turning around on, we finally made it back to a road and found the cabin again. thanks mike... all in all it was a lovely outdoors day. it was nice to spend some more time with claud as she is leaving in a week or so. maybe less than a week now. yesterday i stayed home all day and vegged out. it felt really good actually. i watched some movies, took a nap, then i worked at 530 which wasnt bad as i was in an easy group with a good aide. today i have been home and at bretts. we ate at taco johns not too long ago. i also have to work pretty soon here, but thats not a big deal. i only have 530 to 930 shifts this month. hopefully they'll pull me back into the unit a few of those times. that would be nice. well better go! tata.

almost over!!!

2005-05-24T11:24:00.000-05:00

well the seniors are currently done with school. lucky ducks. we are also almost done. i only have one day left after today basically, since i only need to go to two classes on thursday afternoon. i get to completely skip friday which is sweet. that is nice since i work full shifts again this weekend. this week has been sooo boring since a lot of the classes i'm in have seniors in them. so that means most of my finals were taken last thursday on the seniors' last day. the only thing that i had to do was finish my masterwork for drawing. i also have to find my drawing kit and my history book to turn in. otherwise we arent really doing anything.

the dance school is officially closing. i guess i have mixed feelings about it. my first reaction was one of anger. then, i realize that i just really want to dance my senior year and i dont care where. im planning on going to ndbc because although there are different dancers there and they are all older, mary and job are there. i think they would admire whoever goes over there because its gonna take a lot of determination. also, they are going to start competing over there, and since competition is one of my favorite aspects of dancing, im really happy about that. im glad they decided to do that this coming year. it will be hard getting used to a different school and different people, but i think it will be a good experience to dance with other people. i love our little group of mary noel's dancers, but i think that dancing over there will seem a lot more professional and real-world.

ive been to a lot of graduation receptions already this year. i still have a lot more to come. it kinda sucks that everyone is having theirs on saturday around 2 and i work at 230. oh well, i'll drop in a few of them real quick. i dont even remember which ones are coming up. graduation is this friday. that will be fun to go to. it'll be sad but i'll be really happy for all the seniors. after 13 years of school (and maybe more if some flunked a year or two) they deserve it. after all, you are just graduating high school to go off to college and learn some more. after that you work for the rest of your life. then you retire and end up in a nursing home before you die. *sigh* that seems depressing. i hope all the seniors can find some fun in their college life. hooray for leaving crookston!

dating test results...

2005-05-18T11:46:00.000-05:00

i got really bored, so i did this, i found it on manda's blog.

Your dating personality profile:You matched the following traits:Wealthy/Ambitious - You know what your goals are and you pursue them vigourously. Achieving success is important to you.Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.Practical - You are a down-to-earth individual who is not impressed with material excess. You care about the stuff of like that really matters.

Your date match profile:You match with men who have following traits:Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart.

Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked
1. Wealthy/Ambitious
2. Adventurous
3. Practical
4. Liberal
5. Big-Hearted
6. Outgoing
7. Intellectual
8. Sensual
9. Athletic
10. Traditional

Your Top Ten Match Traits, Ranked
1. Practical
2. Big-Hearted
3. Funny
4. Conservative
5. Adventurous
6. Intellectual
7. Traditional
8. Athletic
9. Shy
10. Romantic

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lemonade is awesome!

2005-05-17T21:34:00.000-05:00

currently: sitting at home just after taking a nice refreshing shower.

this week has been pretty uneventful for the most part. i'll back track a bit.

on the 14th it was saturday. we had our first of the two weekend dance recitals. saturday went fine, tho sing, sing, sing was pretty much terrible. i cried saturday during the senior's letter things and pictures, so you can just guess what i was like on sunday. whoo. after the performance we went over to the alex's house. i observed while people played cranium and we listened to the lovely cd made by betso and alex. le tango de roxanne went particularily well with the baseball homerun clips they had on. it was pretty crazy. we also watched what her dad had taped of the recital so that was really fun. i was there til about 2am then i got sleepy and went home.

on sunday we had our 2nd recital. my grandparents came down saturday evening so they went to this one. i had two more dances in this recital which were ghost and my solo. both went just fine. in ghost the chairs were really off so it was kinda scary to lift bridget over them. all the other dances we did were fine also. i cant think of anything terrible that happened. after the recital i went to jen's reception for a little while. i went back home then and visited with the grandparents for a little while. i fell asleep really early on sunday so i didnt get much of a chance to visit a lot.

on monday we had school and yeah... school was fine, boring, fine, same as usual. our orchestra/choir concert was that night. everything sounded really good. i like that the cathedral makes the orchestra actually sound pretty good. woot! the choir did awesome as well. after the concert i said goodbye to my grandparents and went over to brett's for a while.

today was really uneventful. school was the same as usual. we have a precalc final starting tomorrow. that makes me really scared cuz i dont remember much of what happened in that class during the first semester. i dont think i understood it back then either. i spent 1 and 1/2 hours working on it and studying so hopefully i wont totally fail. i think i took some pretty decent notes for it, so i dont need to look up everything in the book while the test is going on. other than study today, i ran some errands. i filled up my tires. the back left one was pretty much flat. i think the p.s.i was like, 10 and its spose to be 35. whoops! i got some money, and i had my last official piano lesson. i will be having several more in the summer tho for my senior piano recital. im thinking that it will be sometime in early august.

well i have nothing else to say. i am just extremely bored so i decided to blog. farewell!

oo-la-la!

2005-05-12T21:33:00.000-05:00

i rediscovered a song today, its "barely breathing" by duncan sheik. i think that mid 90's songs are my americana. sigh**

I know what you're doing, I see it all to clear
I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far
I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I
was born
There's not much to examine, there's nothing left to hide
You really can't be serious if you have to ask me why
I say good-bye...
'Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
Everyone keeps asking, what's it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can't figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There's nothing left to reason and only you to blame Will it
ever change?
'Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I'm thinking it over anyway...
I've come to find
I may never know
Your changing mind
Is it friend or foe?
I rise above
Or sink below
With every time
You come and go
Please don't come and go
'Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
I don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I'm thinking it over anyway...

wow, i had to download that when it popped in my head spontaneously today.
well, otherwise my day/week/life has been going good. i've worked a couple times and since we need to fill a bed in the unit we are cutting hours, so i get to leave when im done instead of sitting around for no reason doing nothing. arg.. that sucks when that happens. i was out of there by 8:30 tonight. it was sweet. our dance recital is this weekend. not too worried about that obviously. really cant be after competing three times. sing, sing, sing is the only one we need to worry about a little bit. we kinda suck at that one some days, but its the only new one we have to do at the recital. ghost and my solo are both going to be on sunday, so thats when my family will be going for sure. my grandma and step-grandpa are coming up saturday to see the recital and the orchestra concert on monday. that will be fun. i havent seen them in quite a while. i dont even remember the last time. well lets see, what else has happened this week... yesterday was the blood drive. i went through all the questions/tests to get qualified but as soon as i sat down on the chair i found out that my veins are too small to handle the needle. oh well. i guess if i drink a lot of water the night before its suppose to help, but no one told me that. perhaps some other time. ive hung out with brett quite a bit this week. its been awesome. we've been watching random movies and such. we watched house of flying daggars (kinda confusing and not very good) and 28 days later. oo, and part of jackass. that movie makes me giggle a lot. well, i suppose i should retire. fare thee well!

post-prom

2005-05-08T20:29:00.000-05:00

currently, looking at the lightning.

prom was very fun. i'll give a short summary.

pre-prom: got my hair done by my mummy and then we finished putting on the rest of my outfit. then my date came, we took pictures here and went to betso's. at betso's there was quite a few more people, so we all took pictures over there. it was pretty fun. we chilled out at her place until we had to leave for grand march.

grand march: grand march was probably the worst part. i dont like standing on huge heels for long periods of time. i didnt trip or anything, and i think we all did a good job with the decorations... except for the cutout stars. they were kinda icky looking. i dont think anyone took a huge tumble or anything, so its all good.

dinner/dance: the dinner at the northland was good. i had chicken parmesean and scalloped cheesy potatoes. mm.. *licks lips* the desserts there were good also. the dance was pretty fun. i mostly danced in a large group involving crew members and the like. it was fun. i got nice and sweaty on the dance floor. i dont think i took many breaks at all. i was very untired. i didnt win any cash prizes at the dance.

blast to bede: it was at the armory this year. it was a lot of fun. i went home and got my car, then parked in the high school parking lot to take the shuttle service. when i got there i ate some pizza and such right away, then nate heldstab and i went over to a blackjack table. i was there pretty much until about 1:30. i got my name in the raffle twice tho from winning money, so im proud. i learned that im not too bad at blackjack. after that there was the hypnotist. i got hypnotized and the only thing i remember for sure was that taushia punched me in the face. otherwise its kinda vague. but i have a few new bruises today, and im assuming it came from that show. after that were the prize drawings. i won 25 bucks to v.o.b. and 5 rma bucks from the raffle from the fake money, and for the grand prizes i won a 20 inch tv, which i gave to my parents cuz their old tv was crappy. i wanted to keep my little tv/vcr combo. it works good enough for me.

post-prom: we all went over to mandars house for breakfast and sleep. we started watching pretty in pink, then all passed out. it was all couples there cept for me and the alex the dorman. :D but yeah, i got a few hours of sleep over there and it felt awesomely good. at 10ish i went over to bretts to say hi and then went home around noon so me and my dad could pick up the tv. after that i showered and took another 3 hour nap. then we had dance. it wasnt terrible, but it was so humid from the pre-thunderstorm that we were all sticky and gross. after we got out of dance early i went over to bretts again and hung out with him wohl and petey for a while. then.. i came home.. and here i am... well there was my prom weekend story. *mwah!*

pre-prom

2005-05-07T11:12:00.000-05:00

currently, trying not to mess up my hair.

well, today is prom. i suppose im pretty excited. its kinda awkward with my date cuz he likes me and i had to tell him that i only like him as friends. i think he was kinda sad, but what can i do about it. oh well, it will still be fun to hang out with everyone and get all dolled up. its really early, but my mom and i already did my hair. it turned out really cool. i decided to be different and have most of my hair down. we hot rolled it so it has nice curls and i pinned it back off of my face and threw in a few jeweled bobby pins. i think its really prettyful. im sick of the mainstream prom updo. props to betso for having a hat. well done.

my dress has been hemmed and the lady down the street did a wonderful job. my shoes wont be too terrible even tho they are four inch heels. its all good cuz the heel isnt very skinny or anything. *whew* i also have the lovely jewlery i got, a necklace/choker type thing, and some really dangly earrings. ooo, and my nails. im proud of my nails. they look like they were done in a salon which would be expensive, but i only paid 5 bucks to buy fake ones and i trimmed them down a bit. they've stayed on really well also. i think the best thing about my prom outfit is my garter i will be wearing. it was my mom's at her senior prom. :D lol. it was kinda stretched out from being around my dad's head or something, so she sewed it a bit. its blue with lace and its totally sweet.

i cant believe i have three fricken hours til josh gets here. damn.. well we werent sure if my hair would turn out the first time we hot rolled it, but it did. so thats why im quite ahead. perhaps i'll watch a movie or something. just cant have my head leaning against anything if i want it to stay curly for the night. (doubtful) well, i suppose i'll go find something to do. -farewell.

diamonds are a girl's best friend

2005-05-04T11:48:00.000-05:00

i only have a few minutes left in graphic arts, but watever. i need something to do. our comic (me and betso's) is about done. she just has to finish one more page. it'll only be about a week late thanks to the lovely scanners and procrastination. stupid scanners. we are working on a client assignment right now. i need to discuss with my dad thumbnails for a logo on a t-shirt or polo shirt or something.

my week has been very relaxing for the most part. i only work tomorrow i think. i might work friday but i dont really remember. i've sat around, eaten food, hung with brett, the usual. speaking of food, im hungry. i just ripped off my fake fingernails and my nails are destroyed. oh well :S.

today im gonna get my hair stripped and redyed back to its natural color. im goin at 230ish. im fairly excited to not be a redhead anymore. i think it will be nice. i miss my natural color, whatever it is... she's gonna dye it kindof a dark blondish color. i think it will fade to be a bit lighter. then eventually i'll probably get a few highlights. then, no more self-dying of hair for a while. i at least want my natural hair color for senior pictures. it would be weird to have this color hair in them. byebye dark auburn hair. it was nice knowing you.

we have dance today also, hopefully i'll make it to that. i dont know how long it will take to do my hair. i guess it takes a couple hours. i'll have to bring a book or homework or something. oh well, dance wouldnt be bad today cuz i know everything. we'll probably just be working on sing,sing, sing, which i know pretty well except for the end, cuz she never taught me what to do at the end. plus, i bet mary will be in a lovely mood still from the competition.

our recital is coming up the weekend after this coming one. my grandma and step-grandpa from lacrosse are coming up to see it. they are also staying for the choir/orchestra concert the next day. that will be fun. i havent seen my grandma in quite some time. i never get the chance really. i'll hopefully get down to lacrosse this summer.

summer plans: i'll try to get several hours in working. that would be really nice. i need the money especially in the summer. i'll be going to baltimore most likely. i would stay with our friends that live out there, don, liz and adam. they stayed with us in new york last summer. hm.. maybe we could go to new york for a few days. that would be sweet. and then i can see RENT again!!! i'll also probably go to spokane to stay with my aunt and uncle.

well, i must go now!

i'm better off without you mein heir..

2005-05-03T07:34:00.000-05:00

currently: sitting at home, not going to school yet cuz it's too early.

well we had our final dance competition. it went really well. i was very happy. we dominated this particular competition. mein heir and lion king both qualified for nationals. alex the dorman got dancer of the year. :D and my solo did good enough for me. mein heir actually got a platinum award, which seems really difficult to get with a group number. we wrapped up the day going to applebee's and having a few good laughs. it was a good weekend.

yesterday was highly uneventful for the most part. my back was hurting me a bit so i called into work and my boss let me off for the night. it was nice. instead i sat around my house in bed, and relaxed a bit. i also went to brett's for a while and we watched detroit rock city. (hilarious movie by the way)

school wont be too hard for the rest of the year. i dont have anymore big projects or presentations at all. the only class im really badly slacking in is drawing 2. how sad is that. im working on my iconography and all, but i have not turned in an allegory. sheesh. i know i should just do it, but i dont ever remember it at home. chemistry will also be eventful this week. it's titration week! this titrating stuff really isnt too bad. me and anna v. are lab partners. we did good during our first titration, but our next two kinda struggled. oh well. we still have four days of titrating.

well, i suppose i should go to school now speaking of chemistry...

greetings from the middle of north dakota

2005-04-29T22:42:00.000-05:00

currently: sitting in mandan at a house getting ready for a dance competition tomorrow.

we have our third and final dance competition tomorrow. im excited, nervous, and really part of me just doesnt give a crap about it at all. i just want to get it over with really. im in 7 numbers which is one less than the last competition since we reduced peace.. and the world into you raise me up. i hope i remember that dance. i think i will. its really really easy.

i need to work on monday i believe. and im in the regular part. aagghh! i hope that my boss changed my schedule cuz im suppose to work the weekend of the recital and a day that i will be touring the u of m in the cities. so that wont work. but i left her a message so she can change it before may actually begins. otherwise i have to deal with my other boss who i dont like as much. she isnt quite so lenient. i really just want this school year to get over with. in the summer all i really have to worry about it working, some dance, and vacations.

speaking of working im thinking about volunteering with hospice. i figure since i deal with dying people all the time, i could handle it. i think it would be a nice thing to do and it doesnt take up much time or anything. its not a job so you just go visit whenever you can. it would also look really good on a resume.

well, i think i will try to get our bed made or something cuz im really tired and kinda want to go to bed. g'night

basta me culo

2005-04-26T14:52:00.000-05:00

im just sitting here in bartons class doing nothing cuz i finished the test already. it was pretty easy cept that i didnt read one story. oh well.

yesterday was actually not all that bad. i went right to work after school. found out at 9 that i didnt have to stay til 11, so i checked out the baseball game for two seconds since i was parked right by there. it was majorly cold tho so i wasnt there very long. i just got to go home and relax the rest of the day pretty much. it was nice.

today i have piano and i work a 5 to 9, which isnt bad at all. the people im working with tonight are kinda cranky, but oh well. the only sucky part is that i will probably end up in group 1, which is the only group that has any of the mechanical lifts which are kindof a pain in the ass. oh well. i also need to remember to sign up for my act's. im just gonna do it online cuz i think i lost that packet a while back. i think i can still make the june deadline.

the rest of the week will be pretty busy for me, but i dont work anymore until after the dance competition, which reminds me, i need to get off all the dates for may, i hope im not too late. dangit. tomorrow is just dance, and same on thursday. friday i guess we're leaving right after school. im going to stay with gillian's family at a friend of their's house in mandan. i stayed there a couple years ago so it'll be cool. i think it will be fun cuz i havent hung out with gillian in forever. *sniffle* well except in florida, but still.

i think the competition this weekend will go good. in places like bismark we usually do pretty good. plus, we have been doing these dances for soooo long now. it'll be dang easy. hopefully tomorrow i can start packing cuz all my dance costumes are all over the place. it'll be fun... not. :( oh well, i guess i should go cuz i only have a few minutes left before announcements come on. tata!

j'taime

2005-04-24T10:56:00.000-05:00

friday: school was uneventful. i figured out that i have a lot of homework and it's all in art. me and brett left after 5th period to go to matt magsam's funeral. the weirdest part is that it was open casket. ive seen sooo many old people dead and i'm totally used to that now, but i've never seen a dead kid. it was really rough. i was expecting him to just wake up or something. the funeral itself was really nice. there were a lot of people there. the part that just broke my heart was seeing stevie just break down.

later friday night there was a "poker" night at bretts. only we didnt play poker at all. we played ddr cuz we had 2 pads and that was rather fun. we also watched equilibrium. after that i got really really sleepy so i ended up goin home.

saturday: went to grand forks w/ brett cuz i needed to get an f'ing prom dress. id procrastinated that a little too much. i saw a dress, it was the last one of that kind, it was in my size, only one i tried on, and its the one i got. im sooo picky huh? its really pretty tho, its a strapless light green slightly poufy somewhat beaded dress. i also got huge heeled shoes and a necklace and earrings. oh and in the mall i saw an ex from 2 years ago. it was sooo weird. i thought he was still locked up. lol. brett and i just hung out around the mall and stopped at a few more places. we also went and saw "sin city" which was actually rather good. i loved how it was all black and white except for some stuff. it reminded me of photoshop.

later saturday we went to the dance for a bit, but it kinda sucked so we went back to brett's for a while. we all watched dazed and confused and then became dazed and confused over a relationship situation between 2 other people who shall remain unnamed out of respect. then i went home and played the sims for a while.

sunday: today! um.. i woke up so far and showered. havent done a whole lot yet. i have dance at noon til who knows when. i might end up goin over to bretts for a bit cuz i wanna see this one movie that he has. otherwise my day will be uneventful with homework.

tomorrow: tomorrow i just going to suck ass sooo bad. i have school which is bad enough, only right after school (330) i have to go to work. i have to work til 11pm. so basically, i will have absolutely no life tomorrow. if i were working with mike it would be better cuz he's cool, but jami isnt bad. i can handle that. well, im gonna go eat breakfast cuz im hungry. tata

titrate this

2005-04-21T11:14:00.000-05:00

currently: sitting in graphic arts lab doing not a whole lot. the rest of the class is hearing about the contest that we were at yesterday. i didnt do all that great, but oh well. as a whole we did alright.

my mom stayed home from work today because my dog has diarrheah. how sad is that. he woke us all up at 1:30 am last night. oh well, at least he's potty trained. he wouldnt even go in his kennel.

yesterday was really busy and i was very cranky. we were at that art show all day pretty much. the only cool parts were going out to eat, making a sidewalk microphone thinger, and watching nate hit on mark when mark was trying to get with this girl. it was fairly funny. i ate spinach and artichoke dip at applebees tho. and that made me very happy. plus we stopped for a little bit at the urb.

after we got back i went to dance. it was okay cuz we worked on sing sing sing all day. i heart that dance a lot. it was hard work tho cuz we did it the whole class period. after that brett came over for a bit. it was mostly just us looking at pictures and me yelling at my brother and my dog. well, i have nothing else to say. my life is boring.

about moi

2005-04-19T11:29:00.000-05:00

Ten Random things about me:
-i have a partially webbed toe
-my eyes change color depending on the light
-i dont have a specific favorite color
-i want to go into nursing
-i love to travel
-my favorite place to go is new york city
-i've been parasailing
-i want to go skydiving
-i love cookie dough ice cream
-my shoe size is 7

Nine ways to win my heart:
-hugs
-kisses
-chocolate
-cuddling
-just being nice dammit!
-just being with me, i like company
-appreciating my weirdness
-letting me be myself
-again, just being nice is good

Eight things I carry/wear everyday:
-a pony tail holder
-my purse
-my contacts
-my checkbook
-my i.d.
-toenail polish
-carmex
-shoes

Seven things that annoy me:
-tags sticking out of shirts
-gross teeth
-really really dumb people who think they are really funny
-people who have no personality
-people that think smoking pot is the best thing in the world
-people who smoke pot cuz they are really just depressed and don't want to deal with their shit
-my parents on occasion

Six places I've visited:
-cancun
-disney world
-new york city
-baltimore
-california
-nova scotia

Five things I want to do before I die:
-get married and have kids
-travel all over the world
-go to new york city again
-go skydiving
-play "maureen" in RENT

Four things I'm afraid of:
- spiders
- dinosaurs
- losing someone i love
- small spaces

Three things I do everyday
- brush my teeth
- drive somewhere
- hang out with at least one friend

Two things I'm trying not to do now
- not procrastinate graphic arts
- not pick at my nails

One person I want to see now - well, i see everyone i want to see pretty much everyday, so i will leave this one like this

its over!

2005-04-19T07:37:00.000-05:00

well the play is over. im sad, but also relieved. we had strike and our last cast party yesterday at happy joes. it was pretty fun. i didnt stay for all of the friday video, but that's okay. i ordered the dvd for saturday, so that will be exciting to watch when they are ready. i will miss doing the play a lot, especially the fight scene, but i wont miss the late nights.

im actually working today. that will be weird. i havent worked in over a week, and i havent worked in the scu in forever. hopefully no one new is up there. and hopefully im in an easy group. oh well, it doesnt really matter cuz the unit is always pretty easy.

we have our art competition tomorrow. i think that will be really fun. my painting made it into both of the competitions, but im just bringing it to the minnesota state high school league one. its at sacred heart, and it goes all day. :D i think it will be a lot of fun since we pretty much go there, then hang around all day. we get to eat at applebees or someplace like it. mmm, yay for the veggie pizza there.

well, i have to print off something for graphic arts so i suppose i should do that. byebye!

insanity101

2005-04-17T17:35:00.000-05:00

day two of the play is over. i think as a whole it went better last night, only a lot of lines were dropped. it wasnt obvious to the audience though thank goodness. anna and i had an even better fight scene. i loved the audience last night also. they laughed a lot more than the audience on friday night. it made me happy. im looking forward to our final performance in hopes that it goes especially well. and the fact that we dont have strike tonight it awesome. i dont want to be sitting up at the high school all night. we're going to have strike tomorrow instead before our happy joes cast party.

today i didnt do a whole lot. i had dance for 2 hours, which actually felt pretty good. it doesnt feel like we have a competition coming up because we arent really working on any numbers very extensively. we just did all the competition numbers, including ghost which hadnt been done in a long time, and worked a bit on sing,sing,sing. i just need to practice my solo a couple times up there and im good to go. this competition will be a lot less stressful without sasha.

im finally remembering to bring my camera up to the high school tonight. yay! i really want to start taking pictures again. i already took some today of my dog and the up and coming plants in our gardens.

well, i'd better head up to the high school. i probably will just have time to lie around which is good cuz i dont feel all that great today. fare thee well!

champagne supernova

2005-04-16T13:36:00.000-05:00

well our first performance was last night of a midsummer nights dream. all in all it went over really well. the only thing that happened to me was i got a bad tickle in my throat while i was "sleeping". it sucked a lot. otherwise it was really good. anna and i had our best fight scene as of yet. it was hilarious. nate hanson also did awesome. for being a first year drama person he is spectacular. plus, puck is the perfect role for him. tonight i hope to remember my camera so i can take some fun pictures of the cast backstage. we had our cast party last night at the alex's house. i was only there for a couple of hours, but it was fun. we watched some of moulin rouge and ate tons of food. and they had guacamole! hooray for guacamole!

today i have done nothing really. my mom made me dust and vacuum upstairs, but that didnt take too long. i layed outside listening to music for a while. i had just fallen asleep when my dog attacked me, so i took him for a walk to the park. i am now procrastinating finishing a project, but as i have plenty of time today, i figure i should just get it done. it wont be too hard once i get started on it. after that i will probably just enjoy the awesome weather then do my hair again for tonight. arg, doing my hair sucks. it doesnt do what i tell it to do.

i dont know where the cast party will be tonight, but im sure there will be one. maybe betso's or alex t.'s. alex t was talking about having one. hopefully my parents will let me stay out a bit later tonight. they think i need rest. watever. who needs rest. lol, actually i fell asleep right away last night when i got home. well, i have to do this presentation now before i procrastinate any more. tata for now!

if you were gay...

2005-04-14T11:32:00.000-05:00

currently: sitting in graphic arts doing absolutely nothing. watching people randomly go by. hearing my tummy growl.

on a sadder note, my cat smokey died this morning. she was 13 and has been getting skinnier, but it was still a surprise because i was home all day yesterday and she was just fine. it was really sudden. my dad is bringing her to the vet's today to get cremated, so he might tell us why she died. it was very sad, as we have had her for a long time and raised her since she was only a few days old cuz she was an abandoned alley cat. she was supposed to die within a few days after we got her, but she procrastinated it 13 years. so in honor of my cat, a few interesting facts about her:

-she was an alley cat, thats cool
-she absolutely loved doughnuts
-she'd only snuggle up to you if you had ice cream or a bowl of cereal
-she was scared of thunderstorms
-she could do full somersaults when she chased her tail
-we bought her many toys, but her favorite toys were balls of tinfoil
-she was lactose intolerant
-she only meowed loud when we brought her to the vet
-she drooled when we brought her to the vet

alright, thats pretty good. i feel i did smokey justice.

well, opening night for a midsummer night's dream is tomorrow!!! aagghh!! i dont think we are quite ready. we're getting better, but people still have blank moments where they forget their lines completely. i havent had that problem really bad, but i'll probably end up blanking out during a performance with my luck. i think the best part of these things are the cast parties. :) we're not yet sure where they are gonna be, but according to betso who's sitting right by me, there will be some.

school so far today has been highly uneventful. social, did nothing. drawing, did nothing. pre-calc, did nothing. graphic arts... nothing. the only news ive heard today is that next wednesday when we have our art show which i was looking forward to, we also have a big math test as a junior class. arg!! i really hope we can fix that somehow cuz i really want to go to this art show.

well, i shall be going for now as i need to talk to stegman. tata!

adventures in pre-calc!

2005-04-12T13:11:00.000-05:00

yet another day.. where to begin:

currently im sitting in the graphic arts lab with nothing to do. i could start working on me and betsy's comic strip, but i dont really feel like it right now. i will later, and it will be good. otherwise i have nothing to do in this class. this class is a pure slacker class.

our pre-calc test was last hour. it really wasnt as hard as i thought it would be. i was very happy about that. it was basically just finding terminal points on a unit circle. easy easy!! we didnt even have to do all that hard crap like finding the sine in terms of the secant or whatever.

hm, right now im listening to joey argue with people about his bandana... again. its kind of interesting. he's complaining about how he cant cuz his hair before the play, but he really could trim it if he wanted. it doesnt need to be THAT long.

im now officially seeing brett. yay for that! hm.. wonder what mandalf will think... it kind of sucks that i have no free time this week to do anything tho. arg. stupid busy lives.

the play, well... its coming along. some people are struggling, some are fine. i just really hope that it turns out. yesterday was our last day to call out for lines so a lot of people are gonna be screwed tonight. icky. tonight we also have to have makeup, costume, and hair. im not very excited about that, as i dont like messing with my hair, but we have pictures or something today.

i currently also have a lovely cold given to me lovingly by betso. thanks a bunch... oh well, it could be worse. plus, i stayed home yesterday and slept. it felt awful good.

well, i dont really have anything else to say right now so i'll just sit around and do nothing! tata!

a midsummer night's catastrophe

2005-04-09T14:17:00.000-05:00

i decided to blog again cuz im semi-bored.

we have play practice today. arg. *sigh* but only from 2 to 6. i am just interested at how it will go cuz its in costume. my costume shows a lot of my tummy, and that makes me self-conscious. oh well.. at least my stomach is somewhat tan from florida. ah, i could put more details about florida:

day 1: sea world- it was really warm this day. i went on 2 big rides. one of them was kracken, the insane crazy roller coaster. and the other one was journey to atlantis. it was pretty fun i suppose. the mermaid lady in there was creepy. the one big drop was a good drop so i liked that. we also saw the shamu show, which was cool. i got really drenched at one point. it was fun, me and gillian were on the big screen.

day 2: magic kingdom- this day was really fun. i went on space mountain twice, the haunted mansion twice, splash mountain once (which is kind of stupid), and big thundermountain railroad a few times. i also went on pirates of the carribean a couple times. its not very thrilling but its funny. the best thing at magic kingdom was a really awesome 3-D show called mickey's philhar magic. it showed musical sequences from different disney shows. i thought it was just really awesome. i think i saw it 3 times or something like that. the band marched this day. they did very well.

day 3: mgm studios- i liked tower of terror most at mgm. i went on it twice. i also went on rockin roller coaster which is the new aerosmith one. its fun cuz its one of the roller coasters that shoots u into it at the beginning. i also went on the backlot tour again, which is alright. we also saw the fantasmic light show. it was pretty cool.

day 4: animal kingdom- we werent at animal kingdom for too long, but it was fun when we were there. i went on the safari right away. i saw lots of animals cuz we went right away in the morning. i also went on the scary dinosaur ride. i didnt like that one cuz i am scared of dinosaurs, even tho they dont exist anymore. we then went to downtown disney to perform. orchestra did average, the choir did awesome. later this night we went to epcot for illuminations, which wasnt actually that impressive.

day 5: universal- we went to islands of adventure first. we went on the hulk (a roller coaster) first 2 times. it was pretty fun. it also shot you up a hill. we then went on the jurassic park ride, which also scared me. then we went on dueling dragons which was awesome. the red dragon roller coaster was the best one. then we decided it would be fun to go on some water rides. arg.. we got so wet and so pissed off. so we bought new clothes and went over to the old universal park. we went on the revenge of the mummy ride. it was awesome, i loved it. then we pretty much sat around and relaxed. our medieval dinner was this night. it was really awesome. i was cheerin for the blue knight. we were the loudest section even tho he didnt win.

day 6: typhoon lagoon & epcot- we went to typhoon lagoon first. the wave pool was awesome. i felt like i was back in california trying to boogie board. :) then we went to epcot. we didnt do too much, just walked the countries, and went on a few things. we went on spaceship earth which has pretty sparklies. and we also went on honey i shrunk the audience. i think that show is hilarious. then was our flight back home. i didnt feel like sitting way up front again so i went in the back and sat by brett. there was a lot of turbulence, it was pretty exciting.

well, i suppose thats it, whew.. peace out

yay for penny day!

2005-04-08T16:52:00.000-05:00

im in english right now, but since my class brought a bunch of pennies we wont be having class today. its really nice. alright, updates:

florida: it was so awesome. i'll probably write more details some time, but i will say that it was totally awesome. whoopie! hacha! skidoo! alright. well, the plane was bumpy there and back. especially back, whoa. i went on every insane ride i could except for the mission space one cuz it was spinny and i get sick on those ones. i guess the roller coaster kracken at sea world was the craziest roller coaster. it was really fun. i also liked the mummy ride at universal a lot. it was like a roller coaster only ur like going through fire. its insane. i'll write more about florida when i have time tho...

the play: arg. beth is so cranky. i have to work today and we are spose to have practice. i would only be sympathetic if she gave me the schedule before i had to turn in my requests off for work. arg. well tonight its act 4 and 5 and i say like 2 lines. big whoopdiedoo. and i really need to work cuz i havent worked for like 3 weeks. it sucks. i need money badly. i have none left. plus, i already called in last night so i cant do it two days in a row. if i get fired i cant be in the play altogether. okay, enough bitching, on to something better.

our new puppy: we got our golden retriever puppy, angus, on sunday before i got back from florida. he is the cutest thing in the world!!! i love him. he is kind of a biter tho. but he's learning. he already has learned to sit, and lie down and stuff. he learns really fast. i think it will be awesome when he grows up cuz i love big dogs. right now hes about the size that maggie was when she was still alive.

well, i had better go as the announcements should come on shortly. byebye!

3 days to florida!!!

2005-03-29T09:41:00.000-06:00

hello all!

we'll be goin to florida very soon. im very excited. i havent really started packing yet, but i have bought everything that i need. i also made a list of everything i need to pack cuz otherwise i feel really unorganized and worried that i forgot to pack something. it makes it easier for a scatterbrain like myself. i think the whole sun issue will be okay down there as i have gone tanning a bit. i don't tan very easily but i think i'm past the burning stage. it's kind of interesting cuz i'll be 2nd chair 1st violin when we play in florida. eek! stupid todd isnt going. oh well. i think it will work out. hm... i have nail polish on my finger...

the play is coming along slowly but surely. we ran acts one and two last night. i think it went okay. better than when we had practice on sunday. then again, that was act 3 scene 2. the evilest scene in the whole world. its so darn long.

i havent even been thinking about how we have another competition coming up in dance. yikes. well, its not like we dont know our dances or anything. we just dont know all of you raise me up, but its really easy so thats no big deal. dang, that means i need to work on my solo more consistently. not like i'd ever forget it or anything, i jus want to work on what i was critiqued on when we heard the tapes from the last competition.

also speaking of competition, we have the orchestra solo/ensemble competition the day after we get back from florida. this is very frightening because i have a solo that i think i might back out on cuz i havent had a chance to work on it. arg. im still in a quartet tho. its a brandenberg and its easy. im 3rd violin for that. but i think i'll not do that solo so i'll have to tell him today. its just way too stressful right now.

well, i suppose i should go to school and try to convince some of my teachers to give me homework for florida. i dont want to bring any with me. byebye!

java java java java...

2005-03-24T09:39:00.000-06:00

hey all.

a midsummer nights dream: going pretty well. i currently have all my lines memorized for the most part. theres a few parts that i kinda get mixed up, but i'll get them down soon. im just worried for other people to have their lines memorized. i dont want to have to be telling lysander what to say next. i just hope it works out well in the end.

dance: going fine. we worked on "you raise me up" in ballet yesterday. it is really very easy. and its not very long so yay. for this bismark competition i have less dances than the last one which is awesome.

prom: we got our invitation things in the mail yesterday. im goin with josh bertils, my stand partner in orchestra. i think prom will be pretty darn fun, especially blast to bede. i havent gotten a dress yet (yikes) but im planning on getting a light green dress that isnt too poofy.

school: i need to drink coffee to stay awake during the day (hence the title above) but otherwise school is okay. we have a huge science test today and though i studied im worried that i will not do well on it. chemistry is awful tough. we also have a test in art today, which i find rather retarded. i just want to finish my drawing, which i think i can accomplish today. other classes are goin fine. i need to work on the presentation in social however. we are spose to have it done before we leave for florida. eek.

free time: well, it doesn't really exist, but im goin to nina's for easter and we'll be spending time at my grandma's also, so that will be fun. today is only thursday but we dont have school for four days after this. yipee! and next week we leave for florida, yikes! i need to shop for florida STAT.

well, thats about all for now, fare thee well comrades.

stupid bombers...

2005-03-19T18:23:00.000-06:00

well it is already saturday of our long weekend.

congratulations to our boys basketball who got 2nd for section 2A (i think?) or something like that. i watched yesterdays game and today's game with my mom. we mustve looked really funny screaming at the tv. i was gonna go down there with my dad cuz he had dental meetings and went to the games as well, but i have to work in like, 15 minutes and we wouldnt have been back on time. darnit, that woulda been rather fun. i was just happy that we didnt get totally crushed today during the last game. with the reputation this other team had.. whoo..

yesterday i spent most of my time cleaning, cleaning, cleaning.. etc. pretty boring really. we went and got a lot of food at hugo's for no reason and watched the game. i dont think i left the house except for getting my paycheck, goin to the bank, and going tanning. oh i also dropped off a couple rolls of film yesterday. (finally) so i'll actually have new pictures! yay!

today i had to get U2 tickets online. man did that suck. my dad had already gotten 2 floor tickets from presale, but we needed 2 more. it took half an hour to get in on ticket master and the seats i got were kinda nosebleed. oh well, my mom and my bro have those tickets. im on the floor with my dad. my dad said i was lucky i got tickets at all. we went to grand forks after that as i needed some shorts for florida. i always gain a little in the winter and my summer clothes dont always fit right. so i got nice shorts that are stretchy. stretch denim is the best. i also grabbed a few tops while i was at it and got some,... well i think they're spose to be capris but on me they are short pants. oh well, i thought they were cute anyways. then, got home, watched the game, and here i am.

also, last night i got my mom to watch napoleon dynamite with me. lol. she thought it was funny. i also rented troy to oogle at the tan sweaty bodies. mmm... well, i spose i had better to go work and drop off n. dynamite cuz its due in half an hour. c yas!

lower? hark again!

2005-03-17T12:53:00.000-06:00

so we dont have school today. yippee! my mom is at a workshop all day and my dad works so im at home with my bro doing laundry and cleaning my room. everyone in town pretty much is at the basketball game in the cities. i wasnt really planning on going plus i needed to watch my bro today and work this weekend. today and tomorrow i have NOTHING i need to go to tho. that is so nice. this hasnt happened to me for a long time. hopefully i wont get called into work or anything.

this week has been pretty average besides being short. i know my lines for the play in act 1 sc. 1, act 2, sc. 2 and most of act 3, sc. 2, tho that one is where most of my lines are so i havent quite gotten them down. i say something small in act 4 and in act 5 i dont say a thing. i thought memorizing all those lines would be tough, but its really not that bad at all. i'll have them down eventually. this morning i woke up pretty early for it being a day off. i woke up at 9. scary. i ended up finding one of my mom's old buns of steel workout tapes and i did it as i want to tone my buns. it was quite nice since its rare that i ever get a real aerobic workout. i feel it in my buns too. :D i have several things i want to get done over this weekend. hopefully today i'll get my room all cleaned up. or at least organized so i can dust and vacuum tomorrow. i also need to buy notecards and work on a huge social presentation sometime, and i'd like to get in another tanning session. oh, i also need to pay my phone bill pronto. it cut off last saturday.. whoops. i also am hoping to get to grand forks sometime after i pick up my paycheck and go to the bank to get some things for the upcoming florida trip. i need new shorts so i hope somewhere in grand forks is selling them. well i'd better go switch the laundry, i just heard the buzzer.

p.s. any ideas or suggestions for a prom date, get back to me!

hola all!

2005-03-11T09:48:00.000-06:00

i figured i have a few minutes before i'll go to school. crap on school anyways, i dont need to be there for a while. i already did my presentation in first hour. oh well. i kinda feel like blogging.

well, a midsummer night's dream is coming along slowly but surely. we've pretty much blocked everything, now we just need to memorize lines. eek! i have a lot of the first scene memorized at least, so im content with that for now. i really like my part, as i am a short little tough girl. and i get to keep my hair an auburn color. yay! i kinda like having reddish hair. its less ordinary. tho i must admit that i am started to get bored with it already. i'll keep it this color til summer, then i am gonna get it back to its natural color with some lighter highlights or something.

im very excited for the florida trip that is coming up. im in a room with gilly, betso, and lindsey nelson which is awesome. i love being in a room with people i know i can tolerate for a week. that is, if they can tolerate me. lol. im really excited to go to mgm studios again. that was my favorite theme park in disney world when i went there a long time ago. i loved the backlot tour. im kinda a movie freak so it was perfect for me. we also get to go to universal studios and seaworld which ive never been to. yay for big scary rollercoasters! yay for gillian who will not be wimpy and go on them with me!

well, i had better get to school as it is almost 8 and i need to scrape off my car. fare thee well, i'll write more later.

oh spite!

2005-03-04T09:40:00.000-06:00

well it has been a while. thats exciting.

so the 2nd competition went relatively well. my solo went better than i thought it would. im happy about that. the only thing is that when i went on to do it the music cut out at the first verse, so i had to go on again with a different cd. it was crazy. oh well, i just got to try better the 2nd time. the rest of the numbers went well. lion king got a few applauses. diamonds was a disaster cuz the stage was extremely slippery. i couldnt get off the ground or i would fall on my ass. ghost had gone better in chicago, but o well. we still have another chance at that. we're going to need to redo numbers now cuz both lisa and sasha have quit. lisa doesnt feel the same about dance and i understand that cuz she hasnt been acting like she likes it anymore. and sasha got in huge trouble in minneapolis. we're learning a couple new songs also to replace the world and i think peace.

we had auditions for a midsummer night's dream also. i got hermia which surprised me. im excited about that part. i think this play is gonna be really fun. i hope everyone can manage their lines and such. it shall be grand hopefully in the end. im kinda excited to see everyone's costumes, especially the fairies. i think they'll be awfully pretty. well i guess i should go to school now. tata!

invention no. 13 by bach

2005-02-21T20:32:00.000-06:00

mood= extremely pooped

well i feel a lot better than i did last night. i think work just made me exhausted. i hate working full shifts. i feel bad for the people who only work them. especially in the morning. i decided that as of today im gonna stop drinking and doing other bad things. it just makes me feel so burnt out and nonfunctional. anyone has permission to spank and scold me if i turn naughty again.

my day was rather uneventful. the only time i was out of the house was when i went up to the studio for solo practice. my solo is complete thank goodness. now i just need to make it look good. i got my costume well ahead of time so theres one good thing. the only solos that i know of at the next competition are alex d. betso, me, bridget(i think), and nicole. im a bit nervous since i have never done a solo at a competition and the only solos i HAVE done are the little solos i get during the ballets. i just need to work it! as for the other dances, im not so worried anymore since we survived our first competition with them.

other than solo practice i havent really done anything here. ive mostly been sitting on the computer and in my room. i watched the movie "identity" which i have seen once before but it was a while back. its one of those movies where you see it a 2nd time and since u know the end u see it from a whole different point of view. i recommend that movie, its muy bueno. i also began reading the da vinci code (finally) cuz my dad bought it for my mom somewhere and she's letting me read it first. i havent gotten too far tho. i also have a buttload of homework that i have been sort of working on sort of procrastinating. i was able to finish my chemistry last night, one pre-calc assignment, and my english. i just have another pre-calc assignment (a bigger one), my drawing, which i might not finish quite yet, and.. hm... i think thats it for now.. at least those are the immediate things i need done by tomorrow. hooray! i think pre-calc will come first tho cuz that was due last wednesday. well.. i spose i should do that tho i dont really want to. i'll just put on a good movie or something. farewell!

f it!

2005-02-21T01:18:00.000-06:00

im really not in the best mood right now so i decided to spill it out.. and on the internet... weird...

ive been so fricken depressed lately and i dont know why, i think im just so stressed out about everything. i always get stressed out about things i shouldnt even have to deal with, like other people's problems. i care too much about other people and then i just get more and more stressed out. therefore, i do stupid shit that i really shouldnt be doing, but then again, i dont want to stop doing it. and im quite confused. i think i have 2 personalities, like, the jean who wants to achieve and be good and be a nice person, and the jean who is just like f*** it and does what she wants to do not thinking about other people. urg.. i dont like that jean. i really think i should stop doing that stupid stuff cuz all its doing is messing up my life and making people think im this awful person. and i dont want that.

well, now that i got that out of my system i thought i'd discuss what i learned at work today. did u know that most of the people that get alzheimers used to be extremely smart? most of the people back in the alzheimers unit were teachers. i was thinking about this while i was doing my chemistry cuz we have a nun back there who was a college chemistry professor. whoa... i really enjoy my job cuz one of the funnest things is learning about how these people were in the past. alzheimers is a funny thing cuz these people dont act like they use to for the most part. i like that most of them can remember their past and childhood cuz its the short term memory that goes first. i know that whenever i'm back there they have no clue who i am but they still love to talk to anyone regardless if they know them or not. i just think its really cool.

well, im gonna go get some food cuz im hungry. sorry for the bitching, -jean

im bored...

2005-02-18T22:00:00.000-06:00

yeah, so im really bored. its friday night and im just sitting at home with myself and my french silk pie. i guess maybe i need a night in since already this long weekend i've partied. ugh.. too much partying. and even tho im rather tired and hung over i still dont feel like sitting at home with myself. well, my dad is here, but that is it. my mom and bro are gone so its way too quiet.

well, as a recap of my weekend so far: wednesday i went over to lisa's boyfriends house and mark went over there also. lets just say i was kinda gone and im sorry mark for you having to put up with me, lol. i dont really remember all that much, its kind of a blur. just thanks for getting me home safely. yesterday was well, kinda the same thing cuz i was over there again, but i wasnt there for that long. we watched most of moulin rouge. ive seen that movie before but that was a long time ago. i forgot just how weird it really is. today i have done nothing much since i last wrote. i almost finished my solo which is very good. we're completing all the solos on monday. its kinda scary knowing that our next competition is in a week already. these were really close together. im gonna like the break between the 2nd and 3rd ones. all ive done since then is go to pamida and hugos with my dad. i went with my dad cuz my dad lets me use HIS money to buy stuff that i need.. and dont need. so well.. im gonna go dive into that french silk pie cuz it looks really awesomely good. tata

when i finally found the meaning of life, it changed...

2005-02-18T13:38:00.000-06:00

so here i am again. its been a little while.

chicago was both stressful and enjoyable. the other schools at the competition were insanely good so we didnt stand a chance at winning anything large. i think we did pretty well for us tho. ghost went well which i was happy about. in a lot of the dances we were kindof off which was what brought us down. the rest of the chicago trip was fun. the 2nd hotel was super creepy which was cool. we went exploring that night and everyone chickened out cept for me lisa and lexie. we ended up in this dark ballroom in the south tower which was completely vacant at the time and these security guards came up and scared us. they were nice though. the gave us a little tour of other parts of the hotel and we ended up talking to them for a couple hours. it was crazy. we also had gone shopping that night and went out to eat at the hard rock cafe. ooo.. i need to pay back the arvidsons for my meal. crap. totally forgot about that.

i only went to one day of school this week cuz we had a short week anyways. 5 day weekend baby! yipee! i like this. i didnt have to work yesterday and i dont work today either so its really nice. all i have today is solo practice in like, 15 minutes. then i'll probably have to help my dad up at his new office. oh yeah, he got a new office. he's renting the old lemar's building and it is sooo much nicer than his little brick outside of kum n go. they remodeled it also. its huge. he still has the whole back part where the studio was which is completely empty. its awesome. yesterday we did all the bitch work (scrubbing walls, dusting, vacuuming) so at least thats done. now we just have to move in stuff which he has some guys helping him so i dont even think i need to be up there. i'd just get in the way.

well, i need to go to dance so i'll have to catch up more later! luvs and kisses!

the windy city

2005-02-08T18:23:00.000-06:00

so chicago is coming up really soon. eek! im so stressed out and nervous. i dont feel like we are ready for this competition as well as we should be. and on top of that i have to miss practice tonight cuz i work. arg. i bought some stuff yesterday from hugos and realized that when i made a list of things i need to pack i need to go back for more stuff. this trip will make me so broke cuz i also have to use my own money for all this extra stuff that we are doing. we've been having practice in the auditorium which is nice cuz then u dont have the mirrors and we can figure out which wings to go on and off from. i think most of the dancers are really stressed out right now and it doesnt help that there are various illnesses going around school. i myself went home at lunch today cuz i felt like i was going to throw up, but i never did, so im just gonna go to work and eat light. i was able to down some crackers and cheese. i think my stomach hurts cuz of stress and exhaustion. job and mary are being especially strict but i can understand why. we really need it. but we also need technique classes cuz our technique is goin down the pot. people are having a ballet class on thursday before we leave but i have to work that night. :(

so our itinerary for chicago is as follows: leave crookston around 11:15pm thursday. train leaves at 12:50am. in chicago on friday. dance workshop all day saturday then competition later that day. workshop on sunday morning. go to downtown on sunday. do something that night. leave hotel monday afternoon. return to grand forks around 5am on tuesday morning. whoa. that is quite a trip. i hope no one is really sick on this trip cuz theres so much crap going around.

meanwhile i work tonight.. blegh.. i was just looking at the schedule and it looks as if they overscheduled the unit tonight and if i get kicked out to the floor im gonna be ticked. i worked on the floor on saturday and i remember why i love the unit so much. poo. i like the people that work back in the unit better anyways. and i dont feel like doing all this heavy lifting since i still dont feel quite up to par. oh well, i'll see how it goes. fare thee well!

experiencing a slight lapse of vertigo...

2005-02-05T18:57:00.000-06:00

so we will be in chicago by this time next week. scary!! that is extremely scary! today we ran through vertigo and mein heir for a long time and made them really clean.. or kinda clean. we might have potential. maybe... im kinda scared especially for lion king cuz its really chaotic and its not all that clean yet. the ending is cool now though. its gonna be crazy this week. i need to get organized and figure out everything im bringing.. get my shoes and tights from sports etc.. get my money together.. oh man.. and on thursday i work until 9 pm then we're leaving town at 11:15pm cuz the train leaves at 12:50am. sheesh.

well besides that everything is goin good. tonight i work at 530 in the east wing and that will be weird. i havent worked there for like, 2 months. but speaking of im gonna be late so i better go. i'll write again later.

hungry like the wolf

2005-01-29T02:04:00.000-06:00

well hey there dudes and dudettes. i just had some time to blog so here i am.

dance is coming along, though it still sucks that we only know like, half of vertigo and the first competition is in 2 weeks. eek! we did learn a different ending to lion king that mary choreographed on wednesday. its a lot more climactic than the other one. and we actually have time do have nicole climb on us this time. its messy still, but i think it will work. we also need to get these costumes for the numbers. we still need to get old suits for vertigo. i think we're goin to the care and share on wednesday or something to do that though. mary ordered my costume for my solo. that makes me excited. its kindof this blue costume with pretty sheer fabric over it. the only thing im worried about is that it has bootie shorts basically under the sheer fabric. i'll need to do plies everyday or something.

work has been goin along just fine. last night and the night before i stayed till 11 for people. so i get 4 hours of incentive pay. fine by me! but the nightshift is being all beehatchy because they claim we dont go on rounds at 10pm which we do. grrrr. night shift pisses me off quite a bit. especially this one particular lady. *angry face* otherwise im enjoying work lately cuz i've liked all the people i have worked with this past week or so. and we've had no extreme incidents with residents. one of the sisters out on the floor died the other day and i really liked her so i'm hoping that i can make it to her funeral on monday before dance.

in better news: RENT is on wednesday! yipee! i recieved my ticket via mandalf a while ago and im so extremely excited to go. i heart RENT a lot. i hope all the people in it are good cuz otherwise i'll be bothered by the ones who arent very good. oh well. im totally pumped.

tonight is lisa's b-day party. she's 18 which is so weird. i feel old cuz i'm friends with "adults". haha, right. i think we're gonna go out to happy joes with her mummy who wants to treat us then we're gonna head over to her boyfriends house for a while. its kind of funny cuz my mom is letting me stay there for the night. what a weirdo. i guess she's finally figured out that i have morals and am not gonna get piss drunk or anything. yay! well im gonna head out for now. i'll write again latah!

i'm no ordinary princess...

2005-01-25T23:26:00.000-06:00

so yeah, this week has been rather interesting so far. yesterday was a spectacular monday... not! it was okay until after school when i go outside to discover that someone completely smashed my back driver's side window. nothing was stolen, notlike there was anything that would be worth it.. but yeah, it sucked. so that took up most of my monday with filing a police report, school report, talking to the insurance company, setting up a time with auto glass people... ugh...

one thing that made monday a bit better is i was able to make it to the treasurette dance competition. for the most part, these people have no clue how to dance and it was laughworthy. bagely (i think) did good for a dance team because even though they're stuff was easy, they were together, so i applaud them.

still just been working lately. i had yesterday off, but otherwise i worked the weekend and today. we have a new guy in the alzheimers unit and he is such a cutie. i don't know what it is about winter but there are always a lot of deaths. several people have died in the past month. its rather depressing, but we still move along. i remember this happening last year. whoa. i've been working at the villa for a year already. sweet! and i have all the credits i need thank goodness. inservices are not my idea of fun.

school has been rather pointless lately. though, i understand pre-calc!!! i can even factor now! and foil stuff! im so happy i finally got it. english has had a lot of edgar allen poe, and i've read most of his stuff already so that's easy. social is just... the same old stuff as always. and im kindof understanding chemistry right now. its just the difference between molecules and ions. we havent done any labs in forever which makes me sad. i like labs. im lovin art right now though, which reminds me i have to finish my 2nd sketch. and graphic arts is playing with photoshop, which i know a bit about. woohoo! i hope this semester goes by fast, i wanna get out of here and live on my own. well, i'm gonna head out and do that sketch now. later!

a quick chat...

2005-01-20T18:32:00.000-06:00

i only have like 5 minutes before i go to work, but it thought i'd at least do something constructive in that five minutes. right... so i've been the same as always. the semester changed so it is nice to have 2 art classes. i dont think i'm too retarded in the graphics field so betsy won't have to help me constantly. i'm sure she'll be pleased about that. pre-calc is as confusing as usual. i just want to get this lesson done with and move on, but noooo, we'll have a fricken test then have to do 80 worksheets on it like we did for factoring. ugh.. this lesson incorporates factoring too which is a total bitch.

so anyways... art will be fun. i'm in drawing 2 and i'm excited for that. we get to keep a sketchbook and stuff in which mine will probably be full of stuff by next week. all my other classes are the same, so there's no excitement there.

i havent worked too much lately. i do work today and this weekend though. ooh, we also dont have dance this weekend which i'm kindof dissapointed about. this weekend i think everyone is here so job and mary decide to go to a workshop? what the f-word? we need need need to finish vertigo and clean up everything else. plus i dont even know what the heck we are doing about the costume issue. how are we going to get these suits for vertigo if we dont have time in our lives to get to grand forks. . erg... sorry, i just had to bitch about that a little bit. it felt really good. i'm just so stressed about this chicago competition. its waaaaay too soon.

well, i dont really have anything else to write about for now. so i will head off to work.. yay?

the great unknown...

2005-01-15T10:08:00.000-06:00

hola chicos. since i last posted not too much has happened. i worked a lot for the first week back at school. those 6 to 230 shifts were killers, especially with dance right after them. the first semester of school is finally over. only 3 semesters left and i'm out of here. thank goodness. im just procrastinating an english project and i need to type up a paper that was due yesterday. oh boy. precalc went okay for the first semester. i was surprized at how easy our final was. i finished it in half an hour at the most. we had two days to do it, too. thursday i stayed home cuz i couldnt really walk on my foot very well since i sprained something in it on wednesday practicing for my solo. oh well, its better now. i dont think i can dance on it quite yet, but i'm walking better so there's hope. yesterday i went to a und basketball game with stew whom i dont really know that well yet. he got free tickets or something. after the girls game we got bored and just went out to eat and came home. it was an enjoyable night tho, even tho stew is extremely weird, lol. today all i have to do is go to piano and go to dance so i can at least mark where i am and learn whatever will be taught today. after that i think i'm goin back to gf so gareth can get a computer mic. i actually need one too for the procrastinated english project, so that works out well. maybe i can actually finish this weekend since we dont have school on monday. :D well i need to head off to piano for now, tata my loves!

back to school, yay?

2005-01-04T16:30:00.000-06:00

i am actually in school right now. i'm in stegmans during study hall and i have nothing better to do. my new year was semi-eventful. the party at betso's rocked of course. we also did other random fun stuff over the weekend since it was our last couple of days where we had nothing to do. saturday was spent at mandalf's having a ddr tournament, or trying. the next day betso, peter, and i went to gf to go to the arcade and we went out to eat also.

so my week is as follows... i work mon, tue, wed, thurs, i have piano today, i have a paper to write and im not looking forward to the weekend which consists of me working 6am to 230 then immediately going to dance after that. sheesh. plus we also need to learn "ghost" in dance since that one will be going to chicago. and our solos. arrrgg!!! o, btw, my car is in the shop again becuz a belt for power steering broke. so i have operated for a couple days with no power steering what soever. rrrrrrr... stupid cars, what douchebags. well, i spose i could look like im doing something so i dont get in trouble. tata!

woe is me

2004-12-30T16:47:00.000-06:00

well we didnt have dance today. **the peasants rejoice** i love dance with all my heart, but i'm really sore and didnt feel like trying to dance on a chair again today. our dances are all rather cool though. diamonds is cute and pretty easy tap but the costumes are not flattering at all. lion king is going to eventually kill us all, but it will look awesome. i'm a birdie in lion king, which means lots of cambrioles (shoot me now). oh well. and in mine heir i'm the 3rd sally bones, which is when i dance on a chair and almost break my neck. oh, i am also lifted into the air by betso and alex which is rather scary cuz i always slide off betso's shoulder. meh. but as chaotic as it all is, yeah its fun. i'm actually doing a solo at competition this year which is a first. i'm doing "the great unknown" by dar williams, which i hadnt heard until yesterday. job and mary wanted me to do it, so i said sure. it'll be a nice little dramatic lyrical. well enough about dance.

the past three nights i have been out late at random places, which is kinda rare for me. i was at kaizer's first where we watched a movie and ate lots of popcorn and such. twas rather entertaining. i also took the "slut test" in which i scored a 44% :(, oh well. the next night was spent at betso's where we played interesting video games and i ate a pint of cookie dough ice cream in approxomitely 7 minutes or so. then last night was spent at amando's. this was also quite fun. we played many a card game and lucky for me they were easy card games. and we also watched a movie. most of the time spent at these people's places was us goofing around as usual. it was also lovely to see miss laurie recently as she goes to school in california. and mandalf who is my other other lover.

well, today i sat around the house mostly. i have no car right now cuz i had to get mine towed off to salem's cuz the ignition will not turn for the life of me. so therefore, to work tonight, i'll have to take "the beast". work work work. i havent been there since christmas day i believe. it was kindof a nice break. so back to that tonight and tomorrow. i'm not sure what we're doing on new year's eve, but i heard something about a party at betso's. that could be rather interesting. teehee. well, i must be going cuz my fingers are cramping up. fare thee well.

merry christmas to all and to all a good night

2004-12-25T17:31:00.000-06:00

well another christmas has come and gone. it doesnt even feel like it happened, cuz it always goes by so darn fast. poopie. i had a good time tho. i got numerous bath products so i will finally smell good. :D i also recieved several cd's dvd's books, etc. and an orlando bloom calendar. meow. i also got candy. my dads candy was chewed open by a new member of our family we didnt know we had, a mouse. he is currently looking for traps to kill this new family member. too bad our cat is fricken lazy.

yesterday i played violin at the 10 o'clock mass. it was interesting since becca and i hadnt been to the practice and didnt know what the heck we were doing. we basically made everything up so i'm sure it sounded horrid, but thats okay. the lady who was saying "the blood of christ" really really loud during the communion made it worthwhile. i also saw lee whom i hadnt seen for a few months and paul who i hadnt seen for... 11 hours? lol.

we had a lovely christmas party on the 23rd at nate h's house. it was interesting. lol. i had to work in between but luckily i didnt miss the drinking games with mountain dew and chugging red bull. peter was really hyper and betso was scared of him. it was pretty funny. the german was there too. the german is awesome, i heart him. it was just an interesting and fun filled night.

so i will leave off there and check back soon, tata!

forever and ever ago i blogged last

2004-12-12T01:21:00.000-06:00

wow has it ever been forever! i erm... am really extremely lazy. or maybe its that i have been really extremely busy.... hmmm.... neways...

ballet went fine. i didnt mess up too much, and when i did it wasnt anything catastrophic. the alex was amazing and betso was awesome. i was in awe of the stuff they had to do. all in all, giselle was a success, tho i wish the audience had been a big bigger. and also a big thanks to my anonymous violin stand partner for buying me flowers. he put up with me complaining about dance every day during sixth hour for a week straight. what a trooper.

other than ballet my life has been quite busy. i always have things to do, people to see, places to go. like tomorrow. tomorrow is the "classic noel" christmas dinner. i also have dance, peter's party if i can fit it in, and i need to pay my cell phone bill really desperately.

well i am quite tired since i just got back from an 8 hour shift at the villa. tonight everyone decided to scream at the top of their lungs, bite us, and one lady barfed everywhere. fairly uneventful for the alzheimers unit. :) well, so since i dealt with that i'm out. toodles

home for the holidays, today grand forks, tomorrow the world!

2004-11-14T13:19:00.000-06:00

well well well, all of us dancers have been dancin up a storm for the ndbc production "home for the holidays" at the chester fritz. it actually doesnt suck that much cuz i'm only in 2 numbers. and its kinda cool to have it be so professional. like intercoms and such. and a REAL dressing room. woot. so yeah, that has been going okay. today is our last performance, a matinee. my turn to drive. betso and i have been carpooling. she has been a trooper for putting up with me for almost a whole week. props betso.

well so far today has been really boring. i um.. woke up, showered, then ate breakfast. yey? and i just realized that i have a lot of that factoring worksheet in precalc to do yet. crap. maybe i should bring that today for backstage. sounds like a plan.

well i really have nothing to say, sorry for the completely pointless blog. :D *mwah*

today for you, tomorrow for me!

2004-11-02T20:44:00.000-06:00

so here i am back again. today i have not felt well so i called in sick to work. its not like i physically cant work but we cant get the old people sick during this contagious stage. it was for the best however. i tried to lie down and learn the quantum theory but i ended up falling asleep clutching my chemistry book. so here i am now, with all this homework to do, and an icky throat.

this weekend was quite enjoyable. lots of things went on. on saturday we had a little get together at gillian's at which a local band, transmit the c.c. played for us. they did very well i think. i have it on tape if anyone dared to miss it. the lead singer, my friend and collegue, gareth, sang very well. he was a joy dressed up as an emo kid. the rest of the band rocked also. and i feel bad for marco cuz they make fun of him for being a half-breed.

on sunday i had to dance for a while, but afterwards was quite fun. josh mercil and i went over to gareth's to wait for gillian. at around 9/930 we went to the haunted house over at umc. i think that they did a much better job when i went to it a couple years ago, but that's my opinion. it was so much cooler in the old bede. and it wasnt too scary for us cuz we made the korean (peter) go into the little rooms. one said "666 DIE" so we shoved him in there. it was good. nah, i heart peter, he helps me with pre-calc.

yesterday was also fun. instead of school, betso, amando, gareth, gillian, and i went to an art day thing at NDSU. we also went to the mall and discontent which was fun cuz i had money burning to be spent in my checkbook. we also got a lovely charicature(sp?) done at the mall in which gillian is cross-eyed. teehee. all in all yesterday was very fun. and i drove all the way to fargo and back without getting lost! hooray for me!

well chicos, im out

beware cat boy.. meow...

2004-10-24T23:04:00.000-05:00

hola chicos! tis me again. well, who else would it be.

this past weekend i was in winnepeg. i just went up there with my family. it really wasnt that exciting. my highlight was going to the forks to shop. i felt ethnic and bought a bunch of insence and a bhudda, just because. cuz i can. i also liked lookin around at all the other stores in there. i recommend that place to everyone. it was also fun this weekend being able to have good food. i love goin out to eat. otherwise the weekend wasnt all that exciting. stores in downtown winnepeg close at 6pm on saturdays. how gay is that. talk about a party pooper.

tonight i went to "the grudge". my review is right here:
-"the grudge" is only good for an adrenaline rush. it didnt end. story wasnt very clear. and it just kept going back and forth. it was confusing, especially to someone like me. and just cuz there was some boy that was growling like a cat.. yeah.. didnt get it. and some insane murdered chick. and they were pretty much haunting some house in tokyo. yeah.. it was kinda stupid i give it....... negative 40 stars

well, time to go watch the last of the mohicans for bartons class which i find insanely boring. but oh well.. better than the grudge, so i'll be thankful
farewell!

(stress)X^2 + (homework)X - (any fun at all) = pre-calc

2004-10-13T20:02:00.000-05:00

well well well... um... school sucks, PSAT sucked, dance sucks, i'm just having a sucky day i guess.

well, actually it hasnt been all that bad, just long, and stressful. those PSATs were this morning so i missed chemistry, in which i am behind, comp, in which i dont know, and painting, in which i have my few happy moments of the day. i of course returned at the worst possible period, period 4, pre-calc. fun times. if you are smart you wont ever take it... EVER! i used to think i understood math, until now!

dance also happened tonight. we learned dance #2 for giselle. i can already tell that in november/december i will not be working at all cuz i will be dancing too much. better save up my money now. i do not know at this point how giselle is gonna go. i dont feel that a lot of the Sr. B's are up to some of the dancing. i dunno, i dont think that a ballet with a lot of group dancing was good for this year. we're in a transition stage somewhat.

i've added some pics to my deviantart site so GO TO IT! (artistintheclouds.deviantart.com) if u dont go to it, you'll have to deal with me. later dudes

hooray for the neglection of blogs

2004-10-07T11:45:00.000-05:00

well howdy there again all my good people. i have been quite busy and completely forgotten about this darn thing. o well. since i last wrote, school has started, dance has started, and i've worked a little less because of it.

we had homecoming, pretty much the same as it always is. the dance was alright tho. i had fun partying with my betso. and all my other people.

work has been the same only now i am pretty much exclusively in the special care unit(alzheimers). but thats okay cuz im really used to it back there and always finish on time. and most of the nurses back there are cool.

dance has started again and of course taken over my life. we dance on sundays for like, 4 hours. we have all these numbers we're working on too, since our wonderful teachers have decided that we will be in a holiday show at the chester fritz and we also have to work on Giselle. i think we should just skip the holiday show, but watever. we're also going to 3 competitions this year, including one in chicago. so therefore, more fundraising! hooray! (i hate fundraising) and that fundraising adds to the fundraising we are doing for prom and for the disney trip.

school has been the least of my worries, except for pre-calc, which i suffer through with my betso and my amando. i'm passing, that is all that matters.

right now we have a long weekend, so i plan to go take some pictures, sit around and sleep, and perhaps have a pre-calc study group that taushia was kindof planning yesterday. so fare well for now my good people.. dont forget to go to: artistintheclouds.deviantart.com or you will regret it. *mwah!!*

ox fart

2004-08-18T17:20:00.000-05:00

well here we go again into another fun filled weekend at ox cart days. i think things are gonna really start up tomorrow, then friday. tomorrow is battle of the bands and since i dont work (yay!) i will be able to go to it. the only thing that i will have to miss because of work that i really want to go to is miss crookston. :( sad. i want my alex to win.

today i am gonna go to grand forks to get in some school shopping. i usually try to get my clothes at cheap stores like gordmans. who needs expensive clothes anyway? clearance all the way baby.

im not really looking forward to school yet cuz i need to get my schedule changed. im gonna drop spanish 2 so i can get in the 2 art classes that i really really really want. spanish was in the way of both of them. since i'm taking enough hard classes as it is, i need some art to look forward to during the day, not more work.

i've been keeping busy during my few days off of work. gillian and i went on a photo-hunt and were quite successful. i still need to drop that film off tho. she spent the night that night. we stayed up, watched movies, etc etc. yesterday i slept most of the day since i didnt sleep the night before obviously. talked to kristina. today slept in again, and i just finished watching swimfan. i really like that movie, i recommend it.

well, that is pretty much it for now, tata.

chippers are a way of life...

2004-08-14T00:22:00.000-05:00

well, today wasnt really all that exciting. i have been having fun with my deviantart webpage

artistintheclouds.deviantart.com <---no www. or anything, that's it

so i have been mostly playing around with that. im developing a roll of film so i have some more stuff to put on there so its kind of empty yet, but theres about 9 pics or something like that. gillian also has one... brokendancer.deviantart.com ....

i worked this evening.. nothing too out of the ordinary, got done on time, had to chart a lot, yadayadayada... it was rather interesting.. before i went to work i was walking into my kitchen and for no apparent reason i completely blacked out. was kinda scary really. i was like, hm.. im dizzy and i cant see, uh.. i dont think this is good. it could be cuz i ate mostly chippers today and since i've been doing that havent been hungry for real meals. so after that episode i ate something then went to work. i didnt wanna pass out driving or anything.

tomorrow is gonna be yet another uneventful day. i work again, same time, probably same group.. who knows... well.. jodi, one of my bosses... but watever.

well, enough of my ranting.. check out my deviant, luv u, see u, tata

There are knobs all over my world!

2004-08-11T20:03:00.000-05:00

Hello again my good peoples. Today was another of my usual uneventful days. One nice thing was that i did not have to work today. that was lovely. i always look forward to these days off.

i woke up at like, 12 and got out of bed at 1. i dont think i've ever been so lazy in my life, but it was lovely. i didnt even leave the house once today. the most exciting things that i did were watch movies. i watched underworld and wild things. and i've seen them both before.

tomorrow will probably prove to be a bit more exciting since i work again at 6 am. therefore, i'll need to get a little bit of sleep tonight. after work i dont know what i will do tomorrow. maybe rent more movies, who knows. i spose i could call one of my friends since i have been introverted the past few days and have neglected them. :( sorry dudes. also, tomorrow is school registration day. yay? i guess i dont mind. i just wanna see who's in all my classes. and then after that it is school shopping. i like that part best of all. i spose school might be better for me since i'll be able to sleep in more for school than work.

well, i really have nothing else to inform you about, so i shall be going now. tata

Thou shalt itch!

2004-08-09T17:40:00.000-05:00

well, today was a rather uneventful day. i am home alone in this house with my broha. goodie goodie. ... not... oh well, it isn't all bad. i get the whole house to myself pretty much since he just stays in his room and watches movies. its all good.

i got to wake up at 5:30 this morning however to work. work was rather difficult both this morning and last night. last night there were so many call lights going off at once. me and the girl i was working with were overwhelmed. this morning i was in the special care unit and all of my people were hard to get up and resistive. stuff like that. it took me all of half an hour to get this one lady up. and it was hard becuz i had to be home by 9 so my dad could go to work at 9:30 cuz someone always has to be home with my bro.

it has been a really dreary day out, otherwise i'd lay outside or go somewhere. it's one of those days where you just want to wrap yourself up in a fuzzy blanket and sleep all damn day. i did do that for a while. i slept while my dad was home on his lunchbreak. i figure i will not do much more today. i may touch my piano for once or something. maybe read. i'm getting very sick of tv and movies so i think i'll stay away from them.

well, sorry this one was quite boring, but that is how my day is today. fare thee well.

What does shooglenifty mean in Scottish?

2004-08-08T19:38:00.000-05:00

Wow, it has been a few days since i have written. bad jean *spanks herself*.

Well, Gillian was over at my house a few days ago. That was a fundacular time. We basically stayed up late being stupid. It was nothing out of the ordinary, except that we hadn't done that in quite some time. So it was rather fun.

Last night i stayed at my cousin, Nina's. My title is one of the memorable things she said. I tried explaining that they speak English in Scotland. Shooglenifty is a Scottish folk band that Gareth likes. I was able to visit quite a few of my relatives yesterday. We were all at my Grandma's house. I saw one of my aunt's from oregon, Aimee. I hadn't seen her in 5 years or so. She is quite fun. My grandma was hysterical the whole time and was saying that she had never seen food disappear so fast. That is the Belfiori clan for you. She also started laughing in the kitchen while holding a sharp knife she was gonna use to cut up a fourth loaf of garlic bread. I calmly removed it from her grip until she regained herself. my poor grandma. *sigh*

Well, the coming school year is coming up so fast its crazy. I guess going back to school gives me a bit more structure and organization back in my life, but adding school to work, dance, and several other activities is going to be a lot. and since i'll be a junior i guess i actually have to do something this year. *double sigh*

well, i must be off to work speaking of the devil. farewell.

may i pick your wedgie?

2004-08-04T00:00:00.000-05:00

well hello again! today was a rather uneventful day i suppose. slept until only 12:30. i think that is pretty good for me. my mom is trying to see if i can get up before noon. it's a long shot but maybe someday soon i'll make it. (maybe) after i woke up i had to go fill out my time sheet up at the villa because i always put off doing it until the end of the payroll period. im such a horrible procrastinator. i also picked up my paycheck which came out last friday. you'd think i at least wouldnt procrastinate on picking up my paycheck... nope. i still do.

this evening i went to an hour and a half long practice with the Valley Fiddlers. i am so out of practice i just laughed at myself the whole time. i couldnt' play worth crap, and we are performing tomorrow. i suppose that i should practice during the summer. 3 months can really take its toll. we are playing at some old people meeting tomorrow at umc.

i also give a formal welcome to gillian who had been gone for quite some time in washington. she was at holden village, a small mountain community, and i believe puget sound. dont take my word for this, im not sure exactly. anyway, she is now back. i'm hoping to see her thursday or something.

well, i really have nothing else new going on, so i shall say fare well!

cows are from another planet...

2004-08-02T23:50:00.000-05:00

hello all of my peoples. today was a rather uneventful day. i worked this morning at 6, only til 9 though. i was in the alzheimers unit again so it was nice and fun. there was a lovely episode in which.... well.. i guess im not gonna say. really, you dont wanna hear it.

after i got back from work i slept from 11 to 4pm. i only was able to get 2 hours of sleep last night. im used to sleeping from 3 am to around noon. my family and i went out to chinese. it was interesting. my family can never be in public i swear. i was reminded of why i dont eat with them very often.

i was able to get this saturday off of work. so, i will be able to go visit my family. hopefully including my cousin nina who tells me that she will be working at a fair and babysitting all day saturday. great timing! oh well, we are staying at her house so i'll at least see her some.

well, i have the next two days off work. tomorrow im not planning on doing anything too extreme. i need to stop up at the villa to fill out my time sheet and pick up my paycheck. then i think im spose to practice with valley fiddlers tomorrow night. wednesday my mom and i are going to see chicago in grand forks. i am looking forward to it since i know some of the cast.

well, i believe i shall be going now, fare thee well my good fellows!

and i shall name my child "moon unit"

2004-07-31T15:37:00.000-05:00

hola chicos. i actually woke before 1pm today. i am quite proud of myself, for that is rare. i do work again today, however i think i'm gonna hang with some friends beforehand. our good pal gareth is back home for 2 days. then he shall leave us again for another 2 weeks. so other than hanging out and working i dont think today will have much more in store for me.

i am hopefully going to get next saturday off work so i can go visit my relatives in the brainerd area. since i work so much it is going to be hard to find time to travel. my grandpa is in a nursing home and i havent seen him for several months because of work. also, i do miss my grandma's cooking. i always gain 10 pounds from a weekend stay there. it's crazy. her lasagna i think is my favorite. i also want to visit my cousin nina who is just insane like me, only a bit stranger. also, an aunt of mine from oregon will be there next saturday and my mom really wants to visit her.

and also, whoever hasnt seen or heard of RENT. go see it and buy the cd. that is an order. in new york i saw it with jai from queer eye and scary spice. they played angel and mimi respectively. it was an awesome show and everyone in the cast was perfect for their role.

along the lines of new york. when we were there i got to see ground zero close up. it was pretty hard because i had been there 4 years before and of course the world trade center was still there. the skyline doesnt look complete without it. they have new plans for the "freedom tower" that is to be built on ground zero. i am glad i was able to see it before they start building though.

well my lovely friends, that is all for today. i loveth thee.

slipper socks are comfy

2004-07-30T13:09:00.000-05:00

today is a dreary day up here in crookston minnesota. the weather has sucked the past few days. and therefore i have been sitting in my house doing not much of anything. tis rather fun. i have rediscovered many movies that have been hidden in the back of my tv stand. i did not remember owning monty python's the meaning of life. tis rather funny.

today i ate a pint of cookie dough ice cream

2004-07-30T00:52:00.000-05:00

the title is true. its not surprising if you know me well though. working is going to take over my life in august. the most days i have off in a row is a big whopping 3. just some advice. no one ever become a nurse's aide at the villa unless you feel like breaking your back and dying of fatigue. so i shall now say farewell because i need to get my beauty sleep before another day of working. fare thee well.

i did not work today, so i shaved my legs

2004-07-28T23:35:00.000-05:00

this would now be my third website like thingy, only this one is a lovely diary that people i dont even know can access. i find that intriguing. for the most part my life is shit so i dont think this will be an everyday thing at all. fare thee well my good friends.